| 4 Sep 08 | today (8) | (5 Sep 08, 5:28 PM by little_bitch) |
| Today has been the strangest of day. In my life there is has been someone who i occasionally top, Today whilst playing i realised i can't do it, I can't be the person he wanted me to be. [more...]
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| 4 Sep 08 | saved profile..nothing to read here | (4 Sep 08, 12:24 PM by shel_shock) |
| Hiya thanks for taking time to read this.
KINK STUFF: [more...]
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| 15 Aug 08 | naproxen | (15 Aug 08, 8:29 PM by shel_shock) |
| At work on monday i damaged my shoulder i think. today after being told by friends i finally went to the Drs to get something for the pain so i could get some sleep. [more...]
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| 24 May 08 | tounge bar blah (2) | (24 May 08, 12:28 PM by shel_shock) |
| well after sorting it all last night i have still managed to swallow the new one today. [more...]
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| 23 May 08 | tounge bar help! (7) | (23 May 08, 10:28 PM by shel_shock) |
| does anyone know if i could have possibly cross threaded my tounge bar ball, i am trying to change it but it keeps just spin, i have tried using kitchen paper for grip but it just wont undo ? and suggestions, not real important i change it but now i cant its annoying me. [more...]
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| 14 May 08 | raining in my kitchen | (14 May 08, 1:39 PM by shel_shock) |
| yesterday my little un flooded the bathroom, took down half my kitchen ceiling, and i want a shower but darned scared i will fall into the kitchen if i do it. [more...]
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| 11 May 08 | beautiful song (1) | (12 May 08, 1:52 PM by Shamanka) |
| dont usually do song blogs but... [more...]
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| 9 May 08 | i made a flogger (1) | (9 May 08, 7:11 PM by Madame_Jude) |
| Today i made a flogger, think it will be a present for someone, but did it cos i needed something to do. but now i know i should read instructions better, when it says don't put the glue to close to the edges, i wont, cos the suede now has glue marks all in a line! [more...]
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| 26 Feb 08 | waffle (4) | (26 Feb 08, 8:23 PM by shel_shock) |
| Been thinking today how my ideas on things within the BDSM world have changed so much in a short amount of time. that some of my thoughts and idea's are no more and that some of the things i thought weren't important are and some that i thought were very important aren't that important. [more...]
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| 17 Feb 08 | i am arresting you | (17 Feb 08, 2:47 PM by shel_shock) |
| I am arresting you on the suspicion of dealing class A drugs, [more...]
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| 7 Feb 08 | Do_me sub? (3) | (7 Feb 08, 9:02 PM by shel_shock) |
| sorry if this turns out long winded or doesn't make sense. [more...]
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| 3 Feb 08 | great day (3) | (4 Feb 08, 7:25 PM by Master_Magic) |
| Well i did it, i made it to the LAM no panic attacks on the train, and only one wobble at the LAM when the fashion show started and there was lots of people in one place. Thanks to Master_magic and BB who both looked after me, and i had to reward myself for getting there, so i bought a magic wand :o. ok now i might never leave my house again but for a good reason this time. [more...]
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| 2 Feb 08 | Agoraphobia (7) | (2 Feb 08, 4:09 PM by shel_shock) |
| Tomorrow i am going to the LAM, i should be really excited, but i am full of nerves. Over the past 6 years i have had really bad periods when agoraphobia has stolen my life, but the last year it has been so much better. i go out and about in Bedford, i even made it to a munch last year. So i know bedford is no problem. [more...]
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| 23 Jan 08 | end of the ride | (23 Jan 08, 9:42 AM by shel_shock) |
| Over the last year, i have felt like i have been on a massive roller coaster ride. With really steep ups and downs but getting no where, just going round and round in circles, But over the weekend and speaking to some friends who have said amazing words of encouragement and doing someone hard thinking. Today i woke up with a clearer head. [more...]
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| 21 Jan 08 | pc help anyone (1) | (21 Jan 08, 11:06 AM by shel_shock) |
| just wondering if there is anyone out there who can help, when it comes to working out what to do with my pc i know relatively nothing. [more...]
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| 6 Jan 08 | cant sleep (6) | (6 Jan 08, 3:33 AM by shel_shock) |
| this aint going to plan, today i decided i aint going to over think stuff anymore, so wtf am i still doing wide awake at just gone 3 for. with a jumbled head and a cup of tea? [more...]
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| 5 Jan 08 | visit from my mum | (5 Jan 08, 3:33 PM by shel_shock) |
| My mum has been down for the day, on 2 occasions she said to me that i had changed, was holding my head higher, smiling and looking at her when i talked. [more...]
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| 25 Dec 07 | so i've tried my hardest | (25 Dec 07, 6:30 AM by shel_shock) |
| not to smile this morning, but i've got christmas caroles blaring and i'm full of joy, even though i'm on my way to work, and my litte un aint with me this year. [more...]
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| 24 Nov 07 | A new start (4) | (24 Nov 07, 10:52 AM by shel_shock) |
| Over the past few months, I've been weighing up my life. Looking at the things I've done and trying to work out what changes i need to make.
I've finally decided to ditch one of the biggest crutches I've used since my teens. I'm no longer a recreational drug taker. Had the greatest night on Thursday with a few of my mates, and got extremely messy, but no more.
I no longer want the world to have fuzzy edges, I want to feel what i feel and not have it dulled. I want my Paranoias and scepticisms to not be drug fueled and maybe i wont put up so many barriers,
I've also lost a stone in weight and trying [more...]
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| 18 Nov 07 | beautiful quietness (3) | (20 Nov 07, 6:54 PM by wyllingwon) |
| Working an early shift this morning, so had to walk my dog at 5.30 and struck this morning how beautiful the silence was. There was no back ground sound of cars passing and the air was crisp and echoey. Never thought I'd say but this morning i was glad to get up before the rest of the world.
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