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| 16 Jan 12 | Consensual Non Consent (5) | (17 Jan 12, 9:44 PM by misunderstoodslave) |
| Warning: please don't read this if the subject of Consensual Non Consent upsets you. I don't want to cause anyone any upset. [more...] | ||
| 16 Jan 12 | Daddy (5) | (17 Jan 12, 10:33 PM by pleasureswitch) |
| A very strange thing happened to me the other night when I was playing with my FwB (friend with benefits). He's my friend, we sometimes hook up for dinner, flirting, and lately kinky sex. We started out teasingly using the word 'Sir', which he likes, and when we play me calling him his actual name has become the safe word. Despite only really ever playing with me on a few occasions he's become quite the brutal sadist, and there have been times when I've had to use it... I've learnt that fighting him isn't a good idea, he's much stronger, and ruthless with his revenge (see other blog on consensual [more...] | ||
| 1 Jan 12 | Crappiest NYE ever | (1 Jan 12, 3:03 AM by rose_in_chains) |
| [I had hidden this, but re-showing it as a reminder to myself that 2012 is going to be brilliant. I fell hard, but picked myself up quite quickly from this, and no, I won't be showing the whole blog I'd written, he apologised, and all is well again. Different, but well again.] [more...] | ||
| 31 Dec 11 | Changing the Script (3) | (3 Jan 12, 10:51 PM by Souci_X) |
| And so, the end of 2011 draws to a close... And it is with mixed feelings that it does. [more...] | ||
| 30 Oct 11 | Recoil but not retreat (3) | (30 Oct 11, 8:27 PM by Silly_Rabbit) |
| Contrary to popular opinion, I am not a pain slut. I do not enjoy pain. Pain hurts, it hurts like hell, and when it is happening, I want it to stop. Certain factors collude to make certain people believe I am a pain slut: my desire to please, my inner competitive demon, and my stubbornness. And of course the very undeniable fact that pain gets me very wet. [more...] | ||
| 30 Oct 11 | Forgive me, I don't think I'm an atheist anymore (14) | (5 Nov 11, 7:52 AM by Elegantly_Wasted) |
| It's taken a long time to read the book. I think I've had it in my bookcase since almost the beginning, or at least since the time when I started wanting to feel better. But for a very long time I've been scared of feeling better, because feeling bad had become comfortable – and less scary than the truth which is the title of the book, bad things happen to good people. [more...] | ||
| 4 Oct 11 | A Pervert Abroad (3) | (9 Oct 11, 6:26 PM by skadii) |
| Right now I'm in San Francisco, and I'm mightily disappointed. With the history of sexual liberation that San Francisco has, you'd have really thought that in a face/off of kinky shopping, San Francisco would win against all comers. Not so. San Francisco fails. [more...] | ||
| 31 Aug 11 | 14 years ago (7) | (1 Sep 11, 9:37 AM by His_saffy) |
| 14 years ago today I went to bed expecting a very different future. If you'd told the me of 14 years ago what this future looked like, I wouldn't have believed you. And I'd have married him 14 years ago tomorrow anyway. That's what love does, it makes you believe you can beat even the foretelling of a different life. [more...] | ||
| 7 Aug 11 | Who am I? (2) | (9 Aug 11, 1:59 PM by Outre2) |
| Edited 8th August to add: like the previous weblog, I wrote this and then quite quickly hid it again... It feels disloyal to him to be so openly blogging about still being hurt when it really isn't his fault that I am still so hurt, and I need to be moving on. But whether or not I need to somehow just get over it, this is how I feel right now, and so I've unhidden the blog once more. [more...] | ||
| 6 Aug 11 | I am nothing (15) | (7 Aug 11, 9:19 PM by rose_in_chains) |
| Edited 8th August to add: I've been prevaricating about showing this, hiding it, unhiding it, and hiding it again. I wrote what's below when I was in a really dark place, in fact I spent most of the weekend in a dark place. He couldn't make the event I blogged about through no fault of his own, and I don't want any blame to be attributed to him for the way I feel. Throughout the whole thing, he's been a true gentleman, sometimes I doubt him, but that's my insecurity. The situation hasn't ended well, or not for me, but that's not his fault. I'm showing it again because the feelings I wrote about, [more...] | ||
| 10 Jul 11 | Fewer moths to the flame... | (10 Jul 11, 2:59 PM by rose_in_chains) |
| OMG! Just noticed I've broken the 60k barrier... [more...] | ||
| 10 Jul 11 | Dichotomy | (10 Jul 11, 2:49 PM by rose_in_chains) |
| A friend of mine told me I was a real dichotomy, with very complex layers. He said that I appear to be one thing publicly, but, in private, was very different. He said that I come across as a feminist, outspoken against rape. He knows my past. But he also knows that in private, I yearn to be taken, used, exposed, made vulnerable, abused, no choice. He understands that, privately, what I enjoy, is consensual, my choice, with the man (or woman) of my choice. But, yet, he sees the contradiction, in what I abhor, and what I crave. [more...] | ||
| 1 Jul 11 | The Psychopath Test (2) | (1 Jul 11, 9:05 AM by Betony) |
| The Psychopath Test by Jon Ronson - I found it quite unputdownable... Fascinating & frightening at the same time. My thoughts are still a bit jumbled so I'll make more sense of it later but it's got some interesting things to say which are relevant to us, especially on ultraviolence & extreme porn - and on how the police are prone to profile those who like violent porn as potentially dangerous psychopaths. [more...] | ||
| 24 Jun 11 | Perfect (7) | (24 Jun 11, 6:55 PM by rose_in_chains) |
| In case anyone were to get the impression from my last blog that I am 'desperate', that is very far from the case. This time, in the words of the song, it's got to be Perfect. [more...] | ||
| 23 Jun 11 | Other people's happiness (12) | (24 Jun 11, 11:50 PM by Dreamstate) |
| I'm not very well. I haven't been very well for a little while now (some might say a whole long time). Two weeks ago I accepted the fact that my coping mechanisms weren't actually helping me cope anymore, and I got some of the happy pills from the doctor. They seemed to work almost immediately, I stopped needing to cry all the time, in fact I seemed to stop crying altogether. I stopped feeling so maniacally desolate. I felt better. [more...] | ||
| 20 May 11 | If the World Ends Tomorrow... (11) | (21 May 11, 6:36 PM by Angela688) |
| I think I'll actually be a little upset. [more...] | ||
| 9 May 11 | SlutWalk - Why I am Walking (3) | (10 May 11, 10:26 AM by rose_in_chains) |
| SlutWalk isn't a feminist issue. Rape isn't a feminist issue. Rape is everyone's issue. SlutWalk is about highlighting that it is never the fault of the victim and only ever the fault of the rapist. [more...] | ||
| 13 Apr 11 | Addendum (7) | (14 Apr 11, 6:37 AM by rose_in_chains) |
| The earth is apparently flat because the boy who told me he found the concepts of marriage and commitment pure anathema is getting married. And he aims to quit his philandering ways and remain faithful. I walked away from love because I wanted commitment, and he chose commitment with someone else. Ironic doesn't quite do justice to the situation. And the phrase 'he's just not that into you' was never more true. It just wasn't me. [more...] | ||
| 8 Apr 11 | Pissing the night away.... (5) | (9 Apr 11, 10:52 PM by Phoenixub3) |
| Yep, this is a 'oh that lush rose has been drinking tonight then' blog... [more...] | ||
| 26 Mar 11 | Black Swans and Elephants (5) | (26 Mar 11, 12:13 PM by capital_dee) |
| So. Tomorrow I'm moving. Again. I moved twice last year. Since I left my ex husband 4 years ago, I think this is the 8th move... It's become a standing joke. I'm good at the self-deprecating jokes about it. It's not a joke. [more...] | ||
