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| 19 Oct 08 | Another one bites the dust... (11) | (20 Oct 08, 10:55 PM by Fine_Artist) |
| *sigh* [more...] | ||
| 14 Oct 08 | Some days... | (14 Oct 08, 8:48 PM by poutanaki) |
| Some days I want you so much... [more...] | ||
| 29 Sep 08 | Cast Kink?!? (1) | (29 Sep 08, 8:40 PM by Ouroboros) |
I've somehow fractured the third metertarsal in my right foot. I've not done anything to it, but it's broken  . Today they put me in a cast up to just below the knee. I have to keep any weight off my foot for 4 weeks and am back to hospital in 5. [more...]
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| 23 Sep 08 | Belief (2) | (24 Sep 08, 8:28 AM by canupleaseme) |
| I did not believe that I would survive, yet it was my making. [more...] | ||
| 19 Sep 08 | Fed up :( (3) | (19 Sep 08, 11:28 AM by Shamanka) |
| Fed up and sulky this morning.
I didn't wake up in chains.
I have no tasks to do, no coffee to make, no person to serve.
I have no pain coming, no violence, no filth.
No one to please.
I have no purpose and I feel deeply disatisfied with that.
I could cry | ||
| 10 Sep 08 | I breathe lust (6) | (12 Sep 08, 12:52 PM by Scribbles) |
| (note to random wanky men: What follows is in no way an invitation for you to try and get your end away) [more...] | ||
| 1 Sep 08 | Grief... (5) | (8 Sep 08, 12:51 PM by canupleaseme) |
| How do you face it? [more...] | ||
| 17 Aug 08 | Pushing at my own limits! (3) | (21 Aug 08, 7:26 AM by Lady_persephone) |
| With time off work last week, the play drought was broken. [more...] | ||
| 14 Aug 08 | Skinny poutanaki - an update. (10) | (18 Aug 08, 12:47 AM by poutanaki) |
| I'm two and a half weeks into my weight loss mission and its going well. [more...] | ||
| 14 Aug 08 | Bondage Damage (6) | (14 Aug 08, 10:27 PM by EricStanton) |
| Have squished the nerves in both arms. The backs of my hands, backs of thumbs and up the back of arms are numb. Fingers and palms have feeling. Full range of movement in both hands and arms but I'm weak. Right is worse than the left and my co-ordination is a bit off with my right hand. [more...] | ||
| 4 Aug 08 | Forgetting how it feels. (1) | (15 Aug 08, 12:01 AM by femsup) |
| Its been months since last I played. Since I was last hurt. At first it was hard to be without and I ached for it. Thought about it a lot. Missed it. [more...] | ||
| 28 Jul 08 | Skinny poutanaki... (6) | (29 Jul 08, 1:14 AM by shy_sarah) |
| ...well i'm not. But I am going to be! [more...] | ||
| 26 Jul 08 | Waiting | (26 Jul 08, 10:26 AM by poutanaki) |
| Some of the best moments in life are spent waiting. Unable to keep still because of the excitement. Adrenalin flooding through me. Cunt twitching. Breath heavy. Heart pounding. Mind racing. Aware of every sensation. The cling of the stockings on my legs. The feel of the sheets close against my face. The beat of my heart in my chest. The loudness of silence. Listening to every sound. Playing out in my head what I think will happen. The sheer and quickening excitement. The touch of fear. Skin tingling. Aching for that first touch. Ready for the pain should it come. Secretly hoping that [more...] | ||
| 9 Jul 08 | Cuddle (2) | (9 Jul 08, 11:31 AM by shy_sarah) |
| It's a rare occasion, where i'm not craving sex or pain or degradation or control. I don't ache to be sub today. [more...] | ||
| 20 Jun 08 | A period of adjustment... (6) | (24 Jun 08, 12:38 AM by Alexina) |
| After 12 weeks of orgasm control, my orgasms are my own again and it feels strange. [more...] | ||
| 16 Jun 08 | My adventure/SM/cartoon/horror themed dream?!? (1) | (16 Jun 08, 9:42 PM by Fallen_Fragments) |
| I usually remember my dreams, as I often wake up in the night and I tend to have a vivid memory of them for a while after waking. [more...] | ||
| 12 Jun 08 | Hooked | (12 Jun 08, 9:03 PM by poutanaki) |
| I could scream, [more...] | ||
| 31 May 08 | Cigarettes and alcohol! (1) | (31 May 08, 1:33 PM by shy_sarah) |
| At this rate i'm never going to cum again. One cigaratte means one day without orgasm and i've had four tonight . [more...]
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| 27 Apr 08 | Masochism (4) | (27 Apr 08, 8:47 PM by DeeSobek) |
| Its still an oddity to me, my passion for violence. The need in me to be hurt. There are times when it still takes me by surprise. Even though it has been here in me for so long. There are times when i'm slapped hard across my face when I am still shocked by the way my body reacts, the instant arousal. I feel I should be disgusted and annoyed. But I am dizzy and intoxicated. In that moment I am putty. Drugged by the pain and the humiliation. | ||
| 26 Apr 08 | Thresholds | (26 Apr 08, 10:49 PM by poutanaki) |
Throughout the month my threshold for pain changes. A brief spanking earlier, was enough to realise that today, pain doesn't feel so painful. Pain feels mmmmmmmmm  . [more...]
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