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| 29 Jul 05 | i know where Lord Gruntley is!!!!...urgent (4) | (31 Jul 05, 8:26 AM by bohemian) |
| ok so im sad ...but i have missed Lord Gruntleys weblogs and was wondering where oh where the Borean Master had gone well today i found out....WHERE i hear you all say..... was i the only one listening to radio 2 ....dont answer that pls!!!! well steve wright mentioned the ukranian lard fesaval ...well now i bet you thats what happened to our wonderfull Lord Gruntley....He is in the ukraine!!!! it goes on for a week of eating lard...talking of lard ...and for some odd reason known only to the ukrainians....it ends with the eating of lard and garlic so fear not my wonderfull subbie friends...Lord [more...] | ||
| 7 Jul 05 | what do you want? (1) | (7 Jul 05, 8:30 PM by trixibellepixie) |
| ok im in full brat mode i dont do the i want very often but....... what do i want...well its easy i want to feel hands holding me tight to feel the kiss of the flogger on my breasts to see the look on your face as i enjoy every min hear your laugh as i hold my orgasm to feel you roam across my body yor fingers exploring .....feeling your way across i want to be Dominated i want to be submissive i want to be reminded im collared i want to sit at your feet and feel your hands thru my hair i want to use new toys and revisit old ones we love so much i want to unpack my chains and dress for you i [more...] | ||
| 23 Jun 05 | where have all the weblogs gone???? (2) | (24 Jun 05, 6:08 PM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| i have lost ALL my weblogs and musings!!!!! eeeeeeppppppp!!!!! can someone tell me where they are and if i will ever get them back ??? | ||
| 11 Jun 05 | happiness .........i have it!!!! (2) | (11 Jun 05, 11:31 PM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
ok now i feel like CapnJerry is comming home soon
we are down to 45 days 
now im worried that i have changed again!!!
as my son says...i worry about having nothing to worry about
but hey thats me
no ...seriously!!!
i was sat on the beach this mornig ...looking at all CJs friends out with thier fishing boats and it suddenly hit me.....
im happy.....wow....my life is running to plan...for once!!!
im healthy...ok nearly healthy.....i live in a pretty quiet sea side town
i have a Dom who enjoys the exact same things as i do......which is nice
and very soon i know He will be home.....
i supose [more...]
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| 22 May 05 | is it all worth the wait? | (22 May 05, 9:36 PM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| ok today i am at the point where im wondering if my submission to CJ is worth it...... dont panic ...it is... i know that just sometimes i feel so small and alone..i know i have said this before ...boring....yada yada yada ....but i write this for me and for Jerry to read when He is at last home with me to know how hard it feels sometimes ...when im down and need a cuddle....thats 68 days away i sit here imagining His hand caressing my face....His fingers running thru my hair...and yes....the feel of the flogger as it swipes against my body just sitting in the lounge next to Him ...my head resting [more...] | ||
| 19 May 05 | reflecting (1) | (19 May 05, 10:02 PM by trixibellepixie) |
| sorry
another capnJerry ramble here
well CJ is due home in 70 days...so why am i happy you ask?
i just realised something
even when CJ is at sea...im not alone!!!
i Know where He is and what He is doing
He is working....and missing me
suddenly im comfortable in the knowledge that He will be home faster than it seems
and even if it takes another month or two...He will be home to ME!!!
little pixie ...no one else gets into His head....its ME He dreams of...Me He calls and me HE loves
WOW what a revolation!!!!
i may feel rejected at times ....but when He is home...im important!!!
thats a lot [more...]
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| 10 May 05 | missing CJ | (10 May 05, 12:39 AM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| ok i had a few drinks ...but im not drunk...ok maybe a little bit
but does that stop me missing CJ...i was at a works party tonite ...knew it was a bad idea to mix with vannillas
i was the only single??? wtf ..im not single...i have CJ
bur i was the only one alone ..hell this time apart is harsh
you subbies want punishment...try spending 4 mths away from your Dom then you will know what punishment isim sorry CJ the bratty e mail wasnt ment...i know its your job Darling...but i dont have to like it....
sometimes...and i mean just sometimes i wish you had a 9 to 5 job that brought you home every [more...]
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| 6 May 05 | apologies (2) | (6 May 05, 7:51 PM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| ok i need to say sorry to others on here i sent a reply to a blog and it seemed to go astray...so i re wrote it ...again i got a server error so i re wrote it...again server error...and again... well it seems it did post ...again ...and again...and again im not sorry for the reply ....its the echo so sorry folks.....there was ment to be one answer not 6 ....ups my bad!!!! | ||
| 4 May 05 | im so lucky...{lieing subs} | (4 May 05, 8:54 PM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| yes im so lucky after spending last week trying to help good friends to sort out why an english sub had lied thru her teeth to pretend she was interested in being second sub ....even begging the Dom to take her to america and make her quote"happy to be with such a wonderfull dom" they found out she was using another site to find yet another Dom in the uk who was finding collars for her......so i had two very good friends hurt and another Dom lied to all asking me what she was playing at....i just said she was playing at being a sub now we have a new uk Dom who probably thinks all subs are like her.......pls [more...] | ||
| 1 May 05 | i hate life...i hate sundays ..but most of all i hate (3) | (1 May 05, 6:45 PM by Brindle) |
| i hate life...i hate sundays ...i hate CJs parents....and they hate me.....GREAT!!!! i just spent the worst afternoon of my life with my Doms paernts...and guess what .....they HATE me not just me but everything i do ...and everything i say all i wanted to do was spend a day with his family as it is His birthday and as you all know He is away at sea till july well...i did...and i will never do it again.....they wanted to know where i had been ...who i had seen .....every detail of my life .........im sorry i answer to CJ and no one else!!!!! they hated my clothes....jeans and a shirt...whats to [more...] | ||
| 28 Apr 05 | pathetic e mails from fools yes patik i mean you!!!! (16) | (28 Apr 05, 11:11 PM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| ok well it made me laugh after i red it twice so i think we all need to find out how to read profiles ...if they say im happily collared then pls dont try to send e mails like this it wont work ...and you can look like a fool Dear Slut, you will now only refer to me as master paki, and you will do everything i order you to do so, in the first instance send me a pic of you, and you better damn make sure your looking like a filthy slutty whore....Next we need to arrange to meet so u can suck my big coloured cock and let me spray my love juice all over your slutty body. right enough for now, report [more...] | ||
| 24 Apr 05 | today i am happy | (24 Apr 05, 8:17 PM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| yes its true today i am happy ...you can guess the reason .....CJ called and spoke the words i have to hear....everything will be ok ...i will sort everything as soon as i get back ...
so all i need to do is wait till my wonderfull Dom comes home and everything will be ok ...i know it will i trust CJ with my body ,soul and life....as any good subbie would
so today im dancing round the rooms giving flowers to everyone ...lets hope it lasts
be safe CJ ....but mostly
be mine
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| 22 Apr 05 | another moan pls dont read (2) | (23 Apr 05, 9:29 AM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| well here we are CJ has been away a month.....this is the worst time for me...with a quarter of the time gone and 3 quarters to go im in limbo......everything seems so far away and CJ is busy with loading the ship.....organising the crew and acording to Him wanting to become very Dom and start whipping people into shape lol i just got back from yet another hospital visit...{poked by this doctor...prodded by that doctor} they spend hours testing this trying that exraying the other ....hum and ahhh to themselves ....then tell me to go home and wait for a month before they can tell if im better!!!!!!!! to [more...] | ||
| 17 Apr 05 | humourous door signs (2) | (17 Apr 05, 6:53 PM by Chastiser) |
| ok im happier wonderfull son called today and im waiting for Jerry to call....yess the satalite fairy has decided to give me the missing e mails....yippeee!!! ok if you want to stop all those unwanted door knockers wonderful son has a sign to help please stop posting your crap thru my letterbox!!! no free papers....salesmen or god squads KNOCK AND GET SHOT trust me im not interested now fuck off and disturb next door ...they have a longer fuse and dont have a gun!!! | ||
| 17 Apr 05 | i hate satalites | (17 Apr 05, 10:10 AM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| it is hard to be the partner of a sea captain who never goes into port...it means you can never trust that you can comunicate with each other satalites dont care if im waiting for an e mail ...they just dont work properly it has been 3 days since i heard anything form Jerry and im getting to my "i hate this " stage!!! i know i chose to be with him...... so i just have to wait and hope ...everyday looking for e mails ....checking phone messages......but just sometimes i wish it was easier!!!! [more...] | ||
| 13 Apr 05 | CapnJerry | (13 Apr 05, 9:31 PM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| well things have moved on at an alarming but very happy rate
CapnJerry returned from sea on new years eve and i met Him at the airoprt to travel to His home for new years together and......i havnt left yet
im now a very happy subbie who has a wonderful Dom who cares for me as much as i care for Him
im so pleased i came here but it is tinged with a little sadness
CJ will always be a sea Captain this i knew when i met Him and something i have to endure so alas He has returned to His second love.....the sea {no that doesnt mean i want folks to try and cyber me ...or that i want to play with others!!!!}
my [more...]
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| 20 Dec 04 | my Dom returns and sorry to all | (20 Dec 04, 2:18 AM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| i must be the luckiest sub in the world after everything i have said all the bratty,bitchy e mails i have sent CJ still cares and is comming home to be with me i know i dont deserve it and i will always be thankfull to Him for being so forgiving of my silly outbursts and to all the people who have listened to my stupid rants can i just say im sorry you know who you are and i thank you for keeping me going and listening to my insecurities [more...] | ||
| 27 Nov 04 | returning to my place at Jerry feet {Jerrys return} | (27 Nov 04, 10:49 PM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| yes Jerry i still want to sit at your feet and serve you forever i hope you give me time to be who i was pls remember how good it was then help me get that back you still own my body and soul sorry i didnt look after it properly [more...] | ||
| 3 Nov 04 | submission and ex Doms | (3 Nov 04, 12:57 PM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| ok my ramblings to me far to many people think they want to be submissive .....verry differant from BEING submissive i have known from a very young age that i was a submissive and i have found the people in my life who are Doms very easerly but i have found in 38 yrs 3 true Doms whos collars i will wear it took months of talking and listening to find these three all of which i would happily submit to my first Dom died and that nearly killed me to if i haddnt been pregnant then i would of followed Him but i had His som to look after for Him {something im still doing 19 yrs later} my second [more...] | ||
| 29 Sep 04 | getting worse | (29 Sep 04, 2:41 PM by pixie15_CJ_s) |
| ok so im not going to ask if it can get worse ever again now i find out that Jerry will not be home for christmas and i dont know yet when he will be home.........bummer!!!! a sub without a master is a sad sight to behold i feel so small and alone and i cant tell him just how much i miss him....it wont help and things cannot be changed he will return when he can i know that but i must admit i feel like i have been deserted i want to crawl back to bed and just cry myself to sleep but that wont help. i have to keep going , try to get on with things or i will be letting him down. but just here [more...] | ||
