janiya's blog on Informed Consent http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/weblogs/janiya/ The IC RSS Gadget webmaster@informedconsent.co.uk 360 Thu, 29 Dec 2011 22:13:46 GMT Thu, 29 Dec 2011 22:13:46 GMT Thu, 29 Dec 2011 22:13:46 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/322205/ that it is four years since you left. It stills haunts me almost on a daily basis. The happier my life becomes, the guiltier i feel, that your life was taken. Thu, 22 Dec 2011 23:03:45 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/321781/ People have a habit of leaving me around this time of the year. First it was my grandma on Christmas morning, then Thomas just after Christmas. Infact i never 'celebrated' Christmas after my grandma passed away until many years later when Thomas and i moved to Sweden. Well, now it has been fours years since that time and we are embracing the holiday season once again. No tree up as we did not want to chop one down in our woods after the murderous harvesting last year, but we are embracing the spirit of things. Tue, 04 Oct 2011 19:23:55 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/315734/ Since i seem to have an inability to 'take it easy', i've been packed of to Stockholm for a few days. It is so nice to escape into city life now and again, especially as we have a small (well tiny) apartment there. Sun, 29 May 2011 12:35:53 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/305849/ Well, after loosing weight and no longer needing my rubbery stuff, i have a whole load to get rid off. The question is how? I don't have any 'scene/lifestyle' contacts here in Sweden and postage is a fortune out of the country. Most of my stuff is house of harlot custom made, so sizing is an issue too. Pear shaped 20/22 corsets, stockings, skirts, hoods with ponytails etc etc.... what is the point of them being tucked away in a box? Mon, 02 May 2011 19:41:24 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/303891/ has disappeared. As a rarely log in to IC i have no idea when, how or why this happened, but found it a little sad that people i knew have just disappeared and it is empty... oh well. Mon, 11 Apr 2011 23:08:47 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/302345/ is bloody hard work. After surviving my first real, rural winter here in Sweden (town /city living during winter is soooo much easier imo) it feels so good now that spring is on its way. Sun, 13 Mar 2011 22:09:54 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/300021/ Oh goodness, it has been a while. Life is treating me well. We have survived our first winter in rural Sweden. It was a little rough at times, especially when the snow plough was needed 3 or four times a day, just to keep the lane passable. Concerns over clearing the snow off the roofs came and eventually went, when we decided that it was a job left for the pros. I do understand better now why apartment life is so attractive here, even moreso after our heating bills (despite having thermoheating. Mon, 07 Mar 2011 19:09:11 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/299521/ who would i know, remember, recognise? Tue, 11 Jan 2011 16:14:15 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/294775/ Have a whiskey sour for me xxx Mon, 20 Dec 2010 19:42:38 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/292766/ F*ck off world! It wasn't how it was meant to be. Even today i'm not sure that it really happened, or that i survived through it all. Sometimes it feels long ago, other times like yesterday. I was in the kitchen and you were eating dinner on a tray when i heard it fall to the ground. I came through and saw you clutching your chest. I asked you if i should call '112' and you just nodded. Tue, 14 Dec 2010 22:33:17 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/292304/ ... and i'm still surviving and some more. Fri, 28 May 2010 22:22:23 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/273726/ I find it hard to believe that it is almost three years since i left the UK. Scary stuff! So what has happened? I had a wonderful first summer in Sweden, enjoyed my first Christmas there, before suffering the most tramatic loss in my life. Mon, 21 Sep 2009 09:01:52 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/249596/ ... i woke up in Barcelona, looking out over the city from our apartment... someone tell me what the hell i have done to deserve this! :-) Sun, 09 Aug 2009 13:52:10 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/245407/ Having lost touch with so many people, since moving to Sweden and even moreso in the 18months following Thomas' passsing, i have pondered, why post here? I guess, old habits die-hard... Wed, 22 Apr 2009 08:39:18 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/234220/ Life has been fairly hectic recently with work, studies and my social life. I can't believe that i survived yesterday... leaving a friends at 06:30am to get to work (200km away)... to work a full shift then off to to school for three hours of swedish grammar before finally getting home 21:30. But it was worth it Thu, 09 Apr 2009 11:28:01 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/232799/ .. Thu, 26 Mar 2009 17:00:22 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/231372/ Today after work i had the strangest feeling... my eyes were filling up with tears because i felt happy. I haven't felt like this for a very long time. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 11:18:41 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/229648/ Yesterday i enjoyed some relaxed company with a friend. It kinda reminded me how my 'friendships' were when i was 19/20 particularly with guys. I haven't known this person for long, but there is most definitely a mental connection. He's a perve and a fantastic blacksmith. We just function well together in each other's company precisely because we know that we would never have a relationship. Wed, 04 Mar 2009 08:27:15 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/228843/ I don't know where to start. It's not two busses coming at the same time but a whole fleet!! Mon, 02 Mar 2009 14:01:25 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/228633/ Life is continuing to be kind to me. I have had some positives recently: