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| 7 Jan 08 | AfterCare (1) | (19 Apr 08, 12:06 PM by kinkyclover) |
| When we play physically, I am pushed so hard by Master, that I am very wiped out afterwards. I am often shaking and do not know where I am. Being in such a mental place is not safe if he did not protect me and watch out for me, which he promises he always will and I can trust him to keep his word. I do not know how others feel after they play, but I know I could not play with someone I did not know well due to the vulnerable position I am placed in. Aftercare is important for me, and I could easily be taken advantage of in this state. I know that for myself, I couldn't be left alone in this position, [more...] | ||
| 7 Jan 08 | Understanding pain | (7 Jan 08, 7:02 PM by jakeskajira) |
| Understanding Pain: [more...] | ||
| 7 Jan 08 | My first club experience | (7 Jan 08, 1:19 AM by jakeskajira) |
| We have a local club called The Wet Spot, which is about safe sex, safe BDSM play, and education for all people over the age of 18. Master and I finally managed to get to one of their orientation meetings to join. There were two other couples at the meeting that were close to our age, they both seemed nice during the class, one came back later for the “event” that night. We were given a tour of all the dungeon equipment and explained all the club rules and how they expected everyone to act/behave. [more...] | ||
| 3 Jan 08 | Reactance | (3 Jan 08, 11:20 PM by jakeskajira) |
| Since my journey has begun as a slave, I can honestly say that I do not always understand Master's logic or reason for everything he says or does or why. He often uses things inside my head to push me outside of my limits and boundaries, testing me, pushing me. [more...] | ||
| 2 Jan 08 | Reflection, and glad to be done with the holidays | (2 Jan 08, 11:25 PM by jakeskajira) |
| I hate leaving the house; I do not like being around other people because I am sensitive to energy and it makes me nervous and gives me panic attacks. I usually can handle small groups or one on one just fine; it is the busy crowds that do me in, confined spaces. I often have a panic attack before leaving the house, I usually have to build up the courage to go, and force myself to do it when he is not here. (Such as grocery shopping). Sometimes, if he is not here to force me to go, I will just not leave of my own free will. Usually, I call him to see if he will order me to go, that often makes [more...] | ||
| 2 Jan 08 | Last nights sexual adventure. | (2 Jan 08, 6:25 PM by jakeskajira) |
this is a true story, happened last night.  [more...]
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| 1 Jan 08 | Subway fantasy- feed back appreciated. | (1 Jan 08, 5:44 PM by jakeskajira) |
| PLEASE IGNORE GRAMMAR OR TYPOS -- This is from the girls "memory". -- this is a fictional erotica story! [more...] | ||
| 30 Dec 07 | Discipline on a regular basis | (30 Dec 07, 6:21 PM by jakeskajira) |
| My Master thinks that "playing" is good. it helps me get out tension and stress.. (we prefer the term playing to discipline mostly because he's doing it to help me, not to punish or torture me.. but to literally just beat out the stress and any thought of testing his authority, which I do more often if he doesn't do this, but I enjoy it too, so its not really discipline since I happen to like it very much.) [more...] | ||
| 29 Dec 07 | touch | (29 Dec 07, 12:07 AM by jakeskajira) |
| As a slave my body is the property of my Master. It belongs to him, he can touch and use me as he wishes, whenever he wishes, however he wishes. I have hated being touched my whole life, as far back as I can remember. It might be prior abuse, or it could just be a part of who I am. Master has the right to touch me, when and however he wishes and I do not expect him not to do it because I feel uncomfortable with it occasionally, but he does feel that I should tell him, as he has a right to know. [more...] | ||
| 26 Dec 07 | Fictional erotica I wrote -- Short story -- Begging to cum (3) | (29 Dec 07, 5:57 AM by titchfield) |
| Feed back is appreciated! (ignore minor grammar mistakes, this is the raw version and hasn't gone to my editor yet!) [more...] | ||
