| 1 Jun 09 | finally no longer looking | (1 Jun 09, 7:20 AM by immoral) |
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| 19 Mar 08 | nice person/pleaser?/n or pushover | (19 Mar 08, 3:04 PM by immoral) |
| well hello again everyone,lets see, where was i in part 239 of how odd is my life.
Having *taken charge* and moved 200 miles and got a job and
being very grown up, ( over the last 3 years) the last 6 weeks has been the hardest i think, problems with harassment in work, Mr Walker for once being a pain in the arse in a not constructive way, my children having paralell mid life crisisees and discovering that the caretaker for my Home in Wales has been sub letting it out to the entire world and hes taken the rent from them and money for bills and spent it.. i turned up to a house full of [more...]
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| 3 Aug 07 | deep thought....wel its deep and thoughty (1) | (4 Aug 07, 10:17 PM by quietsoul) |
| So many questions and the more i know the more i think.
i said once *if not you then no one* i wonder how long it will be till thats not still the case,
it can be a huge thing to invest part of yourself in someone else and easier not to definately >less than .... to not invest. but then what are we if we dont invest?
no reason to get out ones best china , maybe the fact that i still want to makes all the difference... i came here tonight to tell everyone who might be interested that i wont be here anymore.
im not decided if thats true still..but suffice to say my hearts not in it, |
| 25 Jan 07 | well well (1) | (25 Jan 07, 10:28 PM by siranfian) |
| firstly id like to say happy new year
secondly id like to say ... God dont you hate it when you meet someone you could ( place gestalt here ) and then they for whatever reasons decide to not talk to you . i have to say its fuckng lucky i have already ben stomped on and ground to a fine excruciating paste or else i dont think id be a lot of use/stab in the eyesocket.... i have a long boring log of tooings and froings to keep me compay ( mine not his )i stil do it as the general control issues even with no one to tell make me squirmy.
being in 3 minds.... ill sit and think somemore [more...]
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| 20 Aug 06 | Captain Ahab turns vegan, no Whale on the menu | (20 Aug 06, 5:26 AM by immoral) |
| Well imagine my shock... well.resigned compliance is closer, Ahab has turned vegan in a manner of speaking.
Comedy paralells aside im more than slightly dissappointed,
3 years down the line back to watching not looking.....
* Swallows the bitter pill *
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| 20 Aug 06 | Captain Ahab turns vegan, no Whale on the menu | (20 Aug 06, 5:26 AM by immoral) |
| Well imagine my shock... well.resigned compliance is closer, Ahab has turned vegan in a manner of speaking.
Comedy paralells aside im more than slightly dissappointed,
3 years down the line back to watching not looking.....
* Swallows the bitter pill *
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| 4 May 06 | GOING DOWNTHE GARDEN EATING WORMS | (4 May 06, 5:03 PM by immoral) |
| as per usual today finds me in my usual state of being in two minds. [more...]
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| 7 Apr 06 | ANDon the second day ... | (7 Apr 06, 4:24 PM by immoral) |
well arent i doing well i had forgotten the personal delights of uncertainty and paranoia that at least for me seem to come along with the mixed bag that is Ahab and his sort .. up and down and up and down and .......... well you get the picture seasick... you betcha 
it probably says a lot about me to be honest.... someone is in a chatroom ( for instance) and doesnt say hello i wonder if they are avoiding me then i feel bad because i think it then i hate myself (( if only a tiny bit )) then i think some more and suspect they ARE avoiding me.then i feel cross and sad and then [more...]
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| 6 Apr 06 | well im back | (6 Apr 06, 3:59 PM by immoral) |
| "Ship ahoy! Have ye seen the White Whale?"
it might seem that despite my attempts to be too busy to have time to do anything BDSM-like and by removing temptation i had decided that for the mostpart i was cured of one or two of my previous longings. just to discover that in the company of an Ahab i can hear this inner voice shouting at me to ( jump on the harpoon)
that Ahab is one delicious man isnt he...
....... im feeling........ rather like slaughtering going on a journey with a lunatic man with a hunger for distruction
(( lucky gothy)))
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| 16 Jul 04 | as suspected. no good deed goes unpunished....( and yes there is a point to this | (16 Jul 04, 1:15 PM by immoral) |
| well ive had an odd few weeks....... it appears i may
be Mother theresa...... or maybe a myrah hindley/hitler
genetic combo [more...]
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| 15 Jun 04 | travels with my aunt | (15 Jun 04, 8:23 PM by immoral) |
| well not actually...... [more...]
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| 13 Jun 04 | FOR RENT ONE SMALL SLIGHTLY DENTED GOTH.( joke) | (13 Jun 04, 7:36 PM by immoral) |
| rather an odd day today.. im on my own again after
having company for the weekend... normalities going to
be back in the morning.....and thats a shame whatever
way i look at it. id forgotten what it feels like to
have good company... [more...]
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| 9 Jun 04 | moby dick ..... | (9 Jun 04, 11:51 AM by immoral) |
| Now, three to three, ye stand. Commend the
murderous chalices! Bestow them, ye who are now made
parties to this indissoluble league.... Drink, ye
harpooneers! drink and swear, ye men that man the
deathful whaleboat's bow -- Death to Moby Dick! God
hunt us all, if we do not hunt Moby Dick to his death!" [more...]
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