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| 19 Apr 06 | wish the pain would stop (5) | (19 Apr 06, 3:34 PM by EndGame_hs) |
| How is it that the good stuff refuses to work when you really need it to? [more...] | ||
| 14 Apr 06 | Telling a friend about the scene isn't a good idea (13) | (15 Apr 06, 3:03 PM by hunnysuckle) |
| I told one of my very best friends over a year ago what I was doing and was a submissive. She thought I was swinging so felt I needed to put her right. [more...] | ||
| 30 Mar 06 | me and music | (30 Mar 06, 6:34 PM by hunnysuckle) |
| I don't often write web logs that don't make any scene to any one but me. Although I feel the need to today. I turn to music when I feel I need to. It helps me out in all sorts of ways, depending what is going on in my life at the time. Today I find music is only hurting me more. Well hurting may be to stronger word. Confused, frustrated, a bit upset and defiantly bothered in some way, may be a better way of explaining. I can't put my finger on why not properly, as that was something music did do for me, was to make reason of something. So it isn't helping me much today and I have had to turn it [more...] | ||
| 24 Mar 06 | Freinds in this world (1) | (24 Mar 06, 6:40 PM by gilly_Dk) |
| Friends in this world are so hard to come bye. I have lost one this week and I didn't even know I was doing it. I hurt so much feeling I have hurt someone who helped me out when I really needed them. They must really feel I have been out of order, just wish I new how out of order I have been and could explain what ever there may be to explain to her. God is this lifestyle worth all the hurt and pain, as that's all I feel most of the time lately. [more...] | ||
| 22 Feb 06 | new pics | (22 Feb 06, 10:51 AM by hunnysuckle) |
| I was realy looking forword to these clearing | ||
| 17 Feb 06 | not saying i am not ok (3) | (17 Feb 06, 6:13 PM by hunnysuckle) |
| Why o why can i not say something when i am not ok in a play. Safe words are not even needed. I am ment to say when something is not ok,but i just dont. Cant expect him to see it if i dont show it or say yes i am fine when he ask me. | ||
| 15 Feb 06 | All weekend (4) | (16 Feb 06, 1:52 PM by tigerlili) |
| Wow. Well just have a full weekend of being a sub and what a weekend it was. HOW scared was I? Like a kitten waiting for its mum to come along and pick it up and let the poor little thing know all is ok and she will look after you. [more...] | ||
| 24 Jan 06 | Doms and phone calls | (24 Jan 06, 9:11 PM by hunnysuckle) |
| I have decided my logs are fare to heavy so I am going to start writing more light hearted ones. [more...] | ||
| 20 Jan 06 | starting again (1) | (20 Jan 06, 11:05 PM by res4sub) |
| The thought of having to start all over again, to find someone to Dom me and help me learn what I like and don't like. The trust you know you have to put into some one not to hurt you, whether it be physical or mentally or even like I am feeling right now emotionally hurt. And I know what has happened to me isn't my fault or anyone else. Yes I am soft and can be emotional but I still feel for them and hope they are getting thought this better than me. But I think they will be ok before I will be. I don't think I am making any sense now. Sitting playing music trying to get over it, and worried [more...] | ||
| 10 Jan 06 | works for us (4) | (11 Jan 06, 12:20 AM by darkdollie) |
| Sorry if this doesn't make any sense to lots of you out there, but it is one of those blogs I have had to right so I can make sense of things. I am all confused like a child with the choose of toy, so much to gain so much to loose, like a pain you injure more than enjoy. Guess I am going crazy, everyone telling me so. Do you feel the same? When the thunder calls you from the mountain high its time to spread your wings and fly. So I think I will take those last words from one of my favourite song lately and do just that. Spread my wings and fly. So time to enjoy what I am doing live for today as [more...] | ||
| 26 Dec 05 | Help get it over with (2) | (30 Dec 05, 3:42 PM by Master_B16man_hs) |
| God its only Boxing Day night and I am beginning to wish Christmas was all over and done with. I don't get to see anything other than the bloody living room, POUTS. It is also really hard to talk to my Master. I have family in the house all Christmas and New Year so can't get on line or take phone calls, POUTS again. I have my moody son staying that seams to think I am having a go every time I say anything to him. I have one daughter that had to have surgery Christmas day morning. The other one that has all her new toys all over the place so my mum is having to do an assault course every time [more...] | ||
| 21 Dec 05 | Married and in the scene? (7) | (22 Dec 05, 5:15 PM by AmberUK) |
| Felt I needed to right this as there was another web log on D/s page, and seemed to be turning into something that was having a go at married people in the scene. Is it still adultery when your partner knows you are subbing to someone and the partner is ok with it? I am in a very happy marriage and my partner is a very good Dom. He plays with his subs in the way I like to be played with, but and there is a very big but coming, we find it hard to play with each other. A Dom could tell or ask me to do something and I will do it even though I may not really wish to do so, if my partner tells me [more...] | ||
| 14 Dec 05 | first steps (4) | (14 Dec 05, 7:00 PM by darkdollie) |
| I am soooooooooo not good with words; I find it hard to say what I am feeling most of the time, never mind trying to write them down. But he so deserves my reply after the time and attention he has given me today. I said how scared I was of being hurt again. As pain for the sake of it doesn't do it for me. I was told he would never hurt me and he didn't. I was made to feel very safe simply by looking into his eyes, his softly spoken words and a warm soft touch when needed. I told him I was going to be hard work since I myself don't really know what I like or don't like, but still needing to find [more...] | ||
