bethy4ever's blog on Informed Consent http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/weblogs/bethy4ever/ The IC RSS Gadget webmaster@informedconsent.co.uk 360 Thu, 03 May 2007 21:07:24 GMT Thu, 03 May 2007 21:07:24 GMT Thu, 03 May 2007 21:07:24 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/142376/ Umm, just got back from a and e after having a tetanus jab up the ruccus. Owwwwieeeeeees :( sniff , snifff boo hoo please take care of this lil bear. She tried to pat a dog she didn't know yetherday and got a bite on de finger and didn't wanna make nothing out of it so waited until the haem. people saw her today for the check up. They had to have the doctor distract me and hold my hands so i didnae fight or nothing while she puts the needle in my arse. Wed, 02 May 2007 18:13:26 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/142219/ Well, you'll be glad to know you get few days peace from me. My connection on the estate is flipping fangled and down so I'm in a net cafe for an hour. To quote Arnie "I'll be back, hasta la pasta n pizza baby." Wed, 02 May 2007 12:36:44 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/142181/ Okay, I reckon by august I will have officially moved into my flat and am planning an afternoon tea party (boys have to wear a tux n dicky bow, girls in party dresses), just a small one. No actual date yet but anyone interested and in London/ Surrey area let me know. Probably do it on a Saturday afternoon. Vanilla clothing on arrival please cos the flats on a council estate. (Sissies are invited too but no outdressing bethy :-p ) Tue, 01 May 2007 14:14:36 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/142040/ WARNING: At least half of these will end you a trip to a loony bin Sun, 29 Apr 2007 00:40:44 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/141716/ CHAPTER ONE: How Jasmine Met Lizzy Sat, 28 Apr 2007 00:23:36 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/141562/ It occurs to me that I just think and question too much, I can'ts relax and let things be, it's not in me. I'm thinking that it partly due to my parents pushing me so far to always become something yet when it was something like a performer they wouldn't push. They didn't understnd that was what I wanted to be and just felt it was a fools game. Wed, 25 Apr 2007 19:22:24 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/141231/ I'm happy happy happy. I sang To Sir, With Love and they asked if I was singing it to Simon. I thought they were gonna say no to me then the producer lady burst out laughing and handed me a golden ticket. I'm through to round 2. Tue, 24 Apr 2007 22:45:13 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/141116/ Umm otay, i hatha share this, mum told me it today and it made me blush blush so here goes. Well, i got memories ofher singing lullabyes when me were berry smal, but mostly like pwotest songs cos she an ex hippy. Umm, anyway she laughs at dat and say dey never sent me to sleep. And she told me that I used to climb into bed with her and dad in the morning and sing her lovesongs. blush blush Mon, 23 Apr 2007 18:47:04 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/140898/ Alright you great and wonderful, and even just a slightly kinky people, i need a posse to come to the second round of auditions for something with me on the first tuesday in June in London. Preferrably looking quite nilla as don't wanna give too much wrong impression, they know a little so spin doctors will cover up stuff and if you think you can give me the date, dress sparkly vanilla and gimme a memo (no outsparkling me). Sun, 22 Apr 2007 23:09:21 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/140793/ Yes things were really good and I feel confident about tomorrow's audition. Frisk came online and I had some more getting to know you time. He's nice, kind, funny and unlike the sort of men figures I'm used to. He can dominate and wants to know about infantalism. I'm going to take things slowly in case I get freaked out and scared off. There's been so much hurt so maybe now it's time for the right things, to learn to put the hurt behind me and get on with being sweet, kind and the cuddly soul (not tart) that I'd like to be thought of as. Thats the real me, someone who gives cuddles, cares and has an enormous amount of heart. Sat, 21 Apr 2007 23:39:08 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/140634/ This has boiled up inside me for a long time. It is creepy and horrible but it neds to come out and perhaps this is the only way. I' m writing on bethy's behalf here as she just wants to throw up, she can't express the words, they're maybe nightmarish. Sat, 21 Apr 2007 01:43:29 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/140517/ It not that I wanna be sumone with issues who yells n makes fuss, it jus all I know how to do. I gots so pushed so hard as a liddle one to becomes anything dat it left me wib a reluctance to makes own mind. I's rather have someone else to follow and to teach and train, to guide an just keep me safe. Fri, 20 Apr 2007 21:35:09 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/140478/ One day, just maybe, things be okay, i be with someone who will be really nice and hold me tight, rock me gently and take away the worlds twoubles. I won't need to cry in my pillow no mores, no more hiding away, just cuddles and snuggles and candyfloss, and popcorn and pizza and trips to the cinema and zoo and being always reminded that i don't need to struggle. Fri, 20 Apr 2007 11:31:28 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/140401/ So I had this dream last night which had a lot to do with my place in sexuality and thing. It was a vivid one that I woke up from because I managed to get out of it at the right time. Here is what I remember. Thu, 19 Apr 2007 15:36:48 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/140280/ Gaaaaaaaah, silly old weather made me too hots, can't understand how some people can stand being outside, it just sweaty and wishing i could soak in a long bubble bath with someone nice and sweet rubbing soap in all my right places, me gently licking at their cheeks and playing with them in the water. Purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Mon, 16 Apr 2007 13:40:33 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/139767/ I hereby announce that at long last, after living two years now as a girl , I have had my first greenlight for cosmetic surgery from Montgomery. Thats the ogre beaten, but he wants me to be approved by barratt too. A walk over. Sun, 15 Apr 2007 12:17:02 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/139618/ Now I don't know much about vanillas I'm sorry to say, they never gave me a chace to know them. One thing I do know is that every person in the worl is here to do something or another, we've all got a part to play. From the lowest of the low to the Highest of the High, every single person matters. Thu, 12 Apr 2007 20:54:49 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/139269/ It's weird and sorta scary but I find myself growing up. I still want to look cute and swweet and spread as much love as possible but now there's a big need for sex, for intimacy and someone to wrap their arms around me and all the problems that i face each day to go away, for a weight to be taken off my shoulders. Will I find love? Will I make love? Will I cry in my pillow each night? Is there a spell to speed things up? What's the answer? All these desires and nowhere to place them. Tue, 10 Apr 2007 17:27:36 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/138946/ So this is a complete fantasy piece, sorta polygamy that i would like to play out with a couple. Mon, 09 Apr 2007 10:48:03 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/138758/ Oh gawd, oh booger, oh crap, i got a 29 year old lad in Manchester who insists that he's devoted to me even though he doesn't really want a little girl and wants someone to think for themselves rather than follow instructions. I'm not good at that sorta responsibility and I keep having to let Him down but He keeps bouncing back like a yoyo insisting that He wants me, i am the only one.