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| 8 Apr 07 | S.W.A.M.P | (8 Apr 07, 11:26 PM by bethy4ever) |
| Once again finding my way up to Bristol and wow something amazingly positive came out of it. My take down and spanking session in the dungeon with Master David left me sore but with a need to explore this more. I am hoping to soon be going down to Swindon to meet him and others. | ||
| 7 Apr 07 | sentimental memories | (7 Apr 07, 12:21 PM by bethy4ever) |
| This is a positive thing. Whenever we came up to London and stayed with Grandma as children we always arrived at tea time. It was beautiful china teacups and saucers, cakes and shortbread and everything was just so. Tea at Grandma's was something of an institution. She is somebody who in many ways influenced me, and though I didn't know it until after she died as a girl she wanted to be a boy. Hmmm.... Well, getting to the point, I now have that very special tea set in my flat and it feels so lovely having tea parties and playing with it. A beautiful, wonderful and magical childhood memory. | ||
| 3 Apr 07 | dolly (a bethy poem) | (3 Apr 07, 5:33 PM by bethy4ever) |
| You're a pretty thing with plastic eyes [more...] | ||
| 3 Apr 07 | sex drive (positive, honest) | (3 Apr 07, 1:56 PM by bethy4ever) |
Sooo, ummmm, filled with new found sexuality I've got a real bursting to explore but umm uhhh no one to explore with. I realyl want to be shown and taught and like play around with a man woman couple maybe rather than just one on one. I think I'm bi but I might be straight and I really want some exploration time. Any volunteers, give me a yim. Thank you.  | ||
| 2 Apr 07 | big big happies (2) | (2 Apr 07, 5:54 PM by bethy4ever) |
| Todays good, really good. First of all, this morning I got my audition date for X Factor at Arsenal stadium, April 23rd (groupies wanted to tag along) , trying to be focused and decide what to sing for them. Second of all, we went to the lawyers office on chancery lane and finished signing papers for the flat - whooop. | ||
| 1 Apr 07 | help wanted | (1 Apr 07, 5:06 PM by bethy4ever) |
| Help wanted, a guide to show me the way onwards when I'm blind, to hold me back when I run too far and to always, ALWAYS, hold me in their arms. What can I give in return? It's not much but my care, love, dreams, enchantment, personality and one day my trust. I don't think about tomorrow because it's the same as today, sucky until an answer comes and a way out is available. I wish I was a ghost so that people when were going to start yelling, screaming or being scary I could walk through walls and not be there, and also so that I could visit people who needed me and keep them safe toos. | ||
| 31 Mar 07 | a little progress (6) | (1 Apr 07, 8:44 PM by bethy4ever) |
| I'm not sure how I feel about this, I just came out of a steamy cyber scene that usually woulda had me totally freaked but i managed it. i think he's just someone there for cyber and thats all it will ever be at the moment because he's in manchester and i'm in surrey and feeling like a scared rabbit about going any closer, moving any faster. And he really can't relate to bethy, most people at least can do that so i think he's really not someone i would go for, or even cyber with again. But maybe, just maybe, he made progress. | ||
| 30 Mar 07 | scumbag of the year awards (4) | (30 Mar 07, 11:01 PM by Scherezade) |
| The first applicant was sent in by e-mail, it simply said "cum here and don't fucking hide from Daddy you lil whore". I think it's pretty high up the rankings. [more...] | ||
| 29 Mar 07 | take down fantasies | (29 Mar 07, 11:40 PM by bethy4ever) |
| 1) Teenage girl has managed to max out Mum and Dad's credit card on a major shopping spree. They take her into their office, insist that she drops her pants because for the first time they have to spank her. When she tries to fight they keep hold of her and spank her until she is crying like a baby. In this baby mode she is then forced to act like a spoilt toddler and not older kid. 2) A cheating wife is discovered by her hubby. He takes her over his knee and spanks her until her bottom is rare then sends photographs to the man she cheated with. After this he makes her stand outside wearing a tablard [more...] | ||
| 29 Mar 07 | 1 frustrated scream? | (29 Mar 07, 4:51 PM by bethy4ever) |
| i sw a job ad for a play thearpist in childrens ward, she said i wouldn't get it cos i'm still pre - op and also no skills, why aren't i trying to get more of the same work i already have been doing? I swear it's controlling, and I'm 27, an adult, however I act. The whole reason behind the playwork job is I would be very good at it. Oh please, please, please, please get me out of here sooner! | ||
| 29 Mar 07 | the tower (1) | (29 Mar 07, 1:12 PM by franky58) |
| I am glad to say the contracts are being exchanged, flat will be mine by easter to rip the carpets out etc. , potential housewarming party for late may for the kinky people of surrey. xxxx bethy | ||
| 27 Mar 07 | signed off work | (27 Mar 07, 11:10 PM by bethy4ever) |
| A big hoo ha this morning about the way my mum and boss talks to me. She's claiming it is down to being poorly and so I been signed off on sick leave for a week. I guess it gives me time to look for a new job. It just frustrates me that she is unable to give a clear precise instruction. I'd do anything not to have such complex work. | ||
| 26 Mar 07 | Mommy/ Daddy Dommes- the age regression thing | (26 Mar 07, 2:22 PM by bethy4ever) |
| Okay, I do appreciate why a lot of Women aren't MommyDommes, but the Ones who are, maybe i'm never lucky or maybe they really want little boys and not little girls. I'm just feeling unlucky when it comes to finding partners, or even play mates. Men jump in, probably powered by their super egos down below but I wouldn't know, and Women with a few exceptions who wanna care and make a fuss over bethy (which is nice but not the complete equation) don't really wanna play. I've so much I wanna explore but just never seem to. | ||
| 25 Mar 07 | teenage lesbian games (3) | (25 Mar 07, 10:44 PM by redandy) |
| Umm, I could use another young looking but strong and bossy lesbian girl for this fantasy. It's bathroom related, two girls exploring themselves while the parents are away or think they are sleeping, learning and discovering each others bodies, first lesbian experience scenario. Maybe there's a third character, but preferrably a mother figure rather than a male. I'm not sure how this will go but do want to explore, perhaps first as cyber before turning it real. A lot of body worship play and status and perhaps take downs, spanking each other, tickling each other, etc. Maybe it would work as college [more...] | ||
| 22 Mar 07 | sex (6) | (25 Mar 07, 9:51 PM by hopespringseternal) |
| maybe it's me, maybe I am like totally around the bend on this one but here goes. The issue of sex got brougt up today becaus a very vulnerable friend in USA, an ageplay one, was whoreing herself for lap dances. It disturbs me because I care about her so much. I didn't have sex until I was 20 and even then it felt like my virginity had been stolen. I can't think about a penis without feeling physically sick. I know I developed late and everything but this is ridiculous at 27! | ||
| 20 Mar 07 | Welcome to hell, my child (1) | (20 Mar 07, 11:01 PM by Jahc99) |
| You think you know pain? [more...] | ||
| 18 Mar 07 | things about bethy | (18 Mar 07, 11:24 PM by bethy4ever) |
| It's been a very long day and I got to be awake and up to get out the house at quarter past six tomorrow. I not sure if me takes Bethy to birmingham again, there's a guy dere at BBB not from online called Chris who kinda wants to have her nappied and to suck him off. Slave that I am, I fin it very difficult to say no. When he says get a seat I will be over , I did manage to get rid of him eventually but umm, sheesh. THank you teach_me for introducing yourself, hi to auntie Jan (tantric), her mates, ady_uk, Simone, Auntie Jeniffer and Suzie, Baby Jenni, Gary, Master Guardian and everyone else I met. I [more...] | ||
| 18 Mar 07 | chatroom drama (8) | (18 Mar 07, 11:49 AM by lizziebldn) |
| and i feel sure that if you go to the informed consent chatrooms you know exactly two people who find it funny to claim they are just telling the truth and are down to earth so they can launch attacks and bully others. Newcomers aren't often staying around, i wonder why. The lifestyles take all sorts but shouldn't it also then ACCEPT all sorts. This Person and the other little twit has been coming into chat for months and doing this, and shes actually fucking looked up to? Her comments such as "i only know reality when i run out of meds" or that i am basically a headfuck are untrue and offensive. [more...] | ||
| 17 Mar 07 | the need for security (2) | (9 Apr 07, 9:41 PM by CuffSnapper) |
| i'm not sure what it is but the thought of being regressed to a helpless state, put on reins, locked in a pen or cot, dressed up prety and not allowed much say in what happens is a security thing for me. [more...] | ||
| 16 Mar 07 | discovering where i fit best | (16 Mar 07, 7:23 PM by bethy4ever) |
| Its sometimes hard to know whether i'm a sub, slave or just an adult little girl. i like to myself as one day being a 24/7 owned whatever i am, but i guess where i get confused is what i am. There's one thing for certain, i can not Domme and never will be able to. i can kinda roleplay spank or humilite someone but that's very rare. What i know is out of bdsm i crave security and sensuality before sexuality which is why a Paternal domestic discipline figure appeals. i examine my journey to be like a baby crawling out of its cot and opening its eyes for the first time into an unknown world, and [more...] | ||
