alexandraa's weblog on Informed Consent http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/weblogs/alexandraa/ The IC RSS Gadget webmaster@informedconsent.co.uk 360 Sun, 16 Nov 2008 09:32:46 GMT Sun, 16 Nov 2008 09:32:46 GMT Sun, 16 Nov 2008 09:32:46 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/215563/ I ache. My body aches. It aches all over. I feel stiff and tense. I need his touch. I need it like air to breathe and water to drink. I need it. My body yearns for him, like a plant stretching to the sun. I can’t control or stop it, I just need it. An essential need, not a want or a desire, a need. I need his touch. Need to feel that release, tensions leaving me, stresses disappearing, problems gone and forgotten. I need his touch. Sat, 08 Nov 2008 10:10:17 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/214602/ I get confused with all the discussions I see on here about people who don't have sex. Don't want it, don't like it, don't enjoy it, enjoy the feeling of not having it, enjoy the feeling of resisting it, enjoy the feeling of not allowing their bodies to respond sexually, enjoy the feeling of having their sexual release controlled (ok that one I can understand), enjoy announcing how long they haven't had sex for, enjoy sado masochistic activities but no sexual intercourse. … Tue, 28 Oct 2008 20:31:23 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/213236/ I want him to touch me, to run his hands over me Sun, 26 Oct 2008 20:47:44 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/213005/ I’m missing him. Which is silly. He’s out of the country. It’s only been a couple of days and he's back tomorrow. With texts and phone calls too. But I’m still missing him. I live alone anyway. How can I miss him? But I do. Sun, 12 Oct 2008 12:40:01 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/211201/ You have an ache inside. A need. You yearn for….. Something…. Your partner wants sex…. Dull boring sex, so gentle and quiet, you want to spit on them….. So sweet you could turn into beating them with a spiked club and laughing at their bruised broken bodies….. Turning your heel and walking away without a thought. Yet, you aren’t sadistic nor dominant….. Sun, 12 Oct 2008 09:55:04 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/211191/ I've been running a course on leadership skills the last couple of weekends, yesterday one of the trainers was doing a piece on responsibility. You had to think of situations where you give up responsibility. In an everyday work/life situation this is about nil for me. Sexually of course a great many thoughts sprung to mind but nothing I was going to share with anyone. In the end I managed to come up with being a passenger on an aeroplane. People assumed I had a fear of flying, no, I don't, I just don't think about where I am or what could happen while I'm doing it but I don't mind flying at all. Thu, 21 Aug 2008 17:11:06 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/205063/ There are a few things of late that have got me thinking. Meeting up with old friends from the BDSM Community, looking at how our relationships have developed over the years, seeing how people have settled into their lives and found a way to integrate their BDSM fantasies with reality. It's really interesting to see how different people work that out as their relationships mature and experiences turn fantasy into reality. Sat, 10 May 2008 11:08:57 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/191519/ Augusta was her name Wed, 23 Apr 2008 18:06:58 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/189198/ He rolls over and looks at me. Sun, 20 Apr 2008 10:03:38 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/188735/ If it makes you happy..... Then why the hell are you so sad.... (Cheryl Crow). Tue, 04 Mar 2008 19:25:15 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/182534/ His voice? His touch? His presence? His smile? The smell of his maleness? His laugh? His frown? His joy? His sadness? The way he moves his body? His sex drive? His cock? The whole fresh sunniness of him? The electricity between us? His intellect? His work? His knowledge? His wisdom? Wed, 20 Feb 2008 17:13:59 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/180751/ Up until about 7 years ago, the word submissive had never really been part of my world. Other than to be something you’d use in a slightly disparaging way or a word you’d use about animals, meaning the opposite to aggressive, rather than something related to power exchange. Sun, 25 Nov 2007 13:39:52 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/169543/ I seem to be struggling to express myself at the moment. Fri, 03 Aug 2007 21:13:47 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/155078/ You can't go wrong with a good fucking and beating so they say, and they're not wrong. What do you mean who are “they”? You don't know anyone do you? Cuh! Thu, 24 May 2007 22:18:50 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/145239/ The Joy of Sex - I know, a cheesy somewhat prissy and cold 1970s publication on the one hand, (actually that kind of reminds me of some people's attitudes when it comes to all things rude and wetly messy), but on the other hand, what joy there is to be had in sex when you have that match, that compatibility between two, three or more of you. I've always had a healthy interest, an appetite, a longing for sexual pleasure. I think it's one of the things that really gives me no shame when it comes to desires and nakedness. Tue, 08 May 2007 21:11:54 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/143101/ Sat, 24 Mar 2007 10:29:59 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/135913/ I've been thinking a lot lately about power exchange. Why I seek it and prefer it. Why, after all, would anyone choose freely to be in someone else’s absolute control? It’s a bit barking mad when you think about it like that. The point is you don’t seek to be in anyone’s control, you seek to be in the control of a particular and very special person, someone you trust to take care of your emotional well being. Someone you trust to take your utterly exposed self and protect it better than you can protect it yourself. Mon, 19 Feb 2007 16:51:05 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/130736/ I had a craving. A need to feel pain, not any old pain, but sexual erotic cruel and evil pain, to feel that red hot passionate intensity that only sado-masochism will bring to sex. It seemed it had been a long time. My mind plays games with me. My body craves the heat, the burn of the lash. My mind dithers, wants it, hates it, fears it. Sun, 11 Feb 2007 12:36:42 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/129383/ The word submissive means so many things to so many different people. I think over the years the main assumptions I've encountered about the word are pretty negative actually, in and out of the scene. Personally I'm happy with my nature and understand my needs. I don't see a conflict between my can do confidence and independence, and my submissive nature. Or do I? After all, why am I writing this? Sun, 04 Feb 2007 09:21:18 GMT http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/128242/ Just searching on Google this morning for the opening times of my local B&Q. Don't get excited I just need some wall fixings for some candle wall thingies I've bought. Found the opening times no problem but noticed on the list a link to a BBC news story….. so followed it.