| 23 Mar 04 | Busy as a busy bee that's busy | (23 Mar 04, 10:50 PM by alexandraa) |
| M has been incredibly busy of late being year end and
all that. Come to that i have been incredibly busy
too juggling 3 jobs at the moment. Work is horrific
right now 50% of the team have left over the past 4
months and they have only just got round to recruiting
due to "restructuring". I'll give them
restructuring. Bad management more like. Still
things seem on the up and up and from early next week
i should just be able to concentrate on the one job
which will be a pleasant change, a damn complex job
but at least its all more focussed. Blimey that was
very vanilla wasn't it? [more...]
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| 22 Mar 04 | Switching, krys's blog and vanilla subs | (22 Mar 04, 11:18 PM by alexandraa) |
Hahhahaha Krys you deviant dont be so coy I can
totally see you swaggering about as a Domme..... well
maybe not  But your blog did spark off my memory of
early days with my ex husband - T (T for anything you
choose to think of beginning with T). In the very
very early days of our relationship - before we got
married (obviously you dont have sex once you're
married thank god - see previous blog ) i had as
ever harboured secret desires of bondage and torment.
Having been badgered by T for some time to tell him my
deepest darkest fantasies i decided to risk utter
humiliation and mention [more...]
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| 21 Mar 04 | Interesting weekend & sex weapons | (21 Mar 04, 5:36 PM by alexandraa) |
| I met up with 9 of the girls I used to hang out with
when I was at university. Some I hadn't seen for ten
years, some for even longer. This was one of our
reunions dare I say it – 20 years on…. How is that
possible when I'm only 25? I have no idea. I must
have been a child prodigy or something. Dont remember
being a child prodigy to be fair but also dont
remember how i reached the heady age of 40. I was a
bit anxious about the inevitable question - So what
have you done in the last 10 years? Gulp. Although M
had been trying to get me to come up with a less
shocking version of [more...]
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| 18 Mar 04 | For sale??? Moi???? i think NOT | (18 Mar 04, 9:06 PM by alexandraa) |
I'm up for sale  evil twin tells me she's been
offered 3 fray bentos pies, you meanies cant you throw
a bag of chips in too? Problem is although i'm a
beautifully trained submissive (M's beautifully
trained slave to be exact), gorgeous, sexy, blonde,
blue eyed bombshell of passion, i'm also trained to
mercilessly and painfully kill anyone that touches me
that doesn't have M's permission. So that's a shame
isn't it? More than you bargained for maybe? [more...]
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| 17 Mar 04 | A word of warning - a tale from the past | (17 Mar 04, 9:09 PM by alexandraa) |
| Today all is well with the world. Its been a
beautiful couple of days weather wise in London and
Spring is definitely in the air. M is a happy bunny
too for a number of reasons. (Do Doms do bunny???) Ok
he's a happy devil So in that environment of
happiness, contentment and utter love for M, I will
now tell you a story. I have been deliberately
avoiding an issue on my blogs..... [more...]
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| 16 Mar 04 | OK i'm calmer now or should i say calmer for now.... | (16 Mar 04, 10:57 PM by alexandraa) |
| Ahhhhh thank you, thank you, thank you for everyone
that wrote to give me NEEDLE play (play??? dont make
me laugh) advice, some smashing links and their
personal views and experiences, fabulous stuff you're
a bunch of disgustingly deviant super heros and
heroines. I've bombarded M with the said emails, links
to sites and all sorts of information in the hope
he'll say bugger that for a game of solidiers and go
back to sweet things like beating me half to death. OK
OK.... all the way to ecstasty and the land of bliss
then. Half to death sounded more dramatic somehow. [more...]
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| 15 Mar 04 | Major mistake and needle play......... sob | (15 Mar 04, 8:19 PM by alexandraa) |
| So who spotted the major fuck up in my last blog and
didn't think to point out to me how stupid i was to
write that???? Hmmmm? Speak up, speak up??? HE's only
just read it TODAY, any one of you could have
mentioned it to me last night. I could have edited it
and he never would have known. Sigh.... And i quote, [more...]
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| 14 Mar 04 | Limits - a betrayal of trust ? | (14 Mar 04, 8:54 PM by alexandraa) |
| Pull up a chair and get a drink its a bit of a ramble
and a rant. It surprised me today to read of someone
mentioning limits. I have long forgotten about
limits. I have none. I thought limits???? What?????
People have limits??? It's so long since I've thought
of having a free choice that I was quite stunned to
think of saying, "No M, I dont do that - bugger off"
(or words to that effect). Let me just qualify free
choice - i choose freely to submit to M, joyfully and
happily to submit to him in any and every way. End of
story. [more...]
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| 13 Mar 04 | The hard life of Dominants..... | (13 Mar 04, 4:07 PM by alexandraa) |
| Dont make me laugh..... Read a couple of blogs today
talking about what a tough life Dominants have because
of all the responsibility and control they have as
their BURDEN - ie us lot of feeble minded
submissives. Ha! You silly creatures. They love it
as much as we love to submit. If it wasn't as
fulfilling to THEM as it is to poor ickle us then why
the buggery would they love it so much and seek to be
stricter and stricter with us?? Hmmmm???? [more...]
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| 9 Mar 04 | Mental Torture & Bondage | (9 Mar 04, 5:51 PM by alexandraa) |
| I think there is little that is more deliciously
tormenting and tortuous than being pushed to extremes
mentally yet having to behave in ways expected or
ordered of you. [more...]
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| 8 Mar 04 | Managing Expectations | (8 Mar 04, 7:23 PM by alexandraa) |
| Over the weekend i watched a very interesting
programme called Status Anxiety, it was talking about
loads of us being unhappy about what we have achieved
in our lives because modern society encourages us to
set our expectations too high. It got me to thinking
about a number of things including something my evil
twin said lately about things she takes for granted.
You know by now i'm in a relationship with a married
man and yet i'm happier than i have ever been. How
can that be? Its not just that i'm happier emotionally
and mentally, but i'm happier in my work, happier in
everything [more...]
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| 4 Mar 04 | Torturing Barbies & other memories | (4 Mar 04, 5:43 PM by alexandraa) |
| I have to say I laughed and laughed at this blog by
Sindie and was stunned to remember I had done the very
same thing. Yes, I have to shamefully (how
humiliating lol) hold my hand up and say I too
tortured my dolls and also my poor defenceless teddy
bears and in particular my sisters dolls and soft toys
Mwahahahahhahahhaaaaa..... [more...]
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| 25 Feb 04 | Freedom in control | (25 Feb 04, 10:55 PM by alexandraa) |
| Well what can I say evilness and sore spots every
which way you turn guess M is feeling loads better and
like a close friend said i have more stripes than a
zebra. Great isn't it? Well I think so and so does
he. Yum. [more...]
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| 24 Feb 04 | Evilness and sorethroats | (24 Feb 04, 6:24 PM by alexandraa) |
| M had a nasty sore throat all last week which made him
feel tired and run down, didn't stop him exhausting me
in the bedroom department but is he ever back on form
now. Its funny whenever he's ill or tired or upset
about something his evilness disappears. He's always
strict and in control (and highly sexually charged)
but his teasing tormenting evility more or less
vanishes. I can tell as soon as I hear his voicethat
he's back on form, there's this subtle undertone to it
that means - Mwahhahahahhahah am I ever in a wickedly
evil mood today and you slave are in for a time of
it. Of [more...]
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| 23 Feb 04 | Relationships | (23 Feb 04, 7:55 PM by alexandraa) |
| Had a bit of a strange weekend worrying about a friend
& her relationship, then another close friend was
rushed into surgery and finally my mother broke her
ankle on Sunday. I felt worried but incapable of
doing anything to help anyone, all events being out of
my grasp and happpening at the other end of the
country. A very annoying thing for a submissive - not
to be able to help. I did of course have a most
marvellous time with M on Saturday morning.
Read some weblogs Sunday night and thought I quite
fancied having a go at that, mentioned it to M this
morning I'd been reading them [more...]
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