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| 11 Aug 04 | Setting the scene | (11 Aug 04, 11:52 AM by alexandraa) |
| I was asked recently by a Dominant new to the lifestyle how Colbeh used to set the scene for play with us. How he moved from normal mode into play mode. At first this struck me as an odd question because of course I was his and as far as I am concerned I lived and breathed our dynamic. There was no switching of modes. Then when I wound my mind back to early days I could understand how this could be something that initially a Dominant would think about and need to plan. Particularly I suppose a new Dom, for them to feel in control. So here is my advice from a subbie perspective...... [more...] | ||
| 10 Aug 04 | Shedding friends | (10 Aug 04, 7:29 PM by alexandraa) |
| When I look back I seem to have wandered through life making and shedding friends almost with the seasons. [more...] | ||
| 8 Aug 04 | When i first dipped my toe i was lucky... | (8 Aug 04, 7:25 PM by alexandraa) |
| I was absolutely amazingly lucky to have had a relationship like the one I had with Colbeh is what I think. I learnt early and quickly what the reality of Ds can be, and to me, should be. Not fantasy land malarky lets move swiftly though 357 slave positions while dancing and smiling pleasingly for the master's eye. But in fact a deep, meaningful mutually fulfilling positive relationship. [more...] | ||
| 7 Aug 04 | New Cultural High | (7 Aug 04, 10:05 AM by alexandraa) |
| I went the the theatre last night.... <looks around furtively to see who might be reading this>... phew no one thank god. And I saw a most excellent musical.... [more...] | ||
| 4 Aug 04 | Mad Northern Monkeys Chapter 2 | (4 Aug 04, 3:58 PM by alexandraa) |
| Its worse than I thought. They have driven me insane. I am now officially barking mad and just call me Mrs Hubbard, they have also eaten me out of house and home. I could moan here for paragraphs but wont be so tedious as to do that but am feeling extremely stressed and LET ME TELL YOU hard pushed finanically. [more...] | ||
| 1 Aug 04 | slaves vs subs | (1 Aug 04, 3:43 PM by alexandraa) |
| There are no slaves vs subs, no bottom vs submissive no Dom vs top. There is just your relationship with your Dominant/Master/Mistress/Top/boyfriend/girlfriend call it what you will. [more...] | ||
| 30 Jul 04 | Mad Northern Monkeys & Sex Weapons | (30 Jul 04, 7:58 PM by alexandraa) |
| Yes I have a troupe of mad northern monkeys visiting me as of tomorrow. For a whole week. What do they say? Save us from Hell, Hull and Halifax. Too chuffing right. I know, I know, as much as I love my friends to pieces they drive me crazy when they stay for more than a day (except evil twin). So how am I going to manage? I thought I'd dig the sex weapons out, dust them off and crack the hell out of them if they annoyed me - that's how. [more...] | ||
| 29 Jul 04 | online | (29 Jul 04, 9:35 AM by alexandraa) |
| Personally I think online is a great way to meet people. I have made bags of really really special friends online and continue to meet more. My key best friends, my most important people were all met through online contact. [more...] | ||
| 25 Jul 04 | Evil twin & energy centres | (25 Jul 04, 7:57 PM by alexandraa) |
| Evil twin is here tomorrow hurrah. Been ages since I've seen her at least ermmmm 3 weeks OK OK not that long then... humph. Will be nice, we talk so rarely..... OK Ok we talk everyday. OK Ok about 3 times a day. In fact I think she has stepped into the mental side of Colbeh's role hahhahaha. Nah not quite... she doesnt send enough text messages but its not a bad attempt lol. [more...] | ||
| 24 Jul 04 | Limits and Trust | (24 Jul 04, 9:40 PM by alexandraa) |
| It was trust that came first of course. When Colbeh and I were first together we had discussed limits, more from the perspective of things we would or wouldn't do, things we had or hadn't done. Things we fantasised about. We learnt and developed and grew to understand each other's minds and bodies over a period of time. BUT I can remember the very moment I gave all myself to him. Yes the very moment. Body, mind, soul and heart were handed over completely. He knows it too. [more...] | ||
| 22 Jul 04 | Pipe or passion, slippers or slave? | (22 Jul 04, 8:23 PM by alexandraa) |
| Power and passion, fire and fury. Seem rare commodities. Does it build over time? But then wouldn't you think it would be there from the start if the buzz and chemistry are right? Over time it becomes embedded and constantly refreshed by a deeper desire and love. So there's just more and more passion and desire and fulfilment. Or do I live in a dream world of expectations? I wonder am I different to the norm. Is it that I just want too much? That emotionally, passionately and physically I expect too much? [more...] | ||
| 19 Jul 04 | Bizarre Training & Caitiff's sex question | (19 Jul 04, 7:41 PM by alexandraa) |
| No no its not what you think.... You dirty perverts... I am now trained, and you will not believe this, trained to..... wait for it...... in a begging position please..... (hahha) [more...] | ||
| 15 Jul 04 | Odd things at 8am | (15 Jul 04, 5:38 PM by alexandraa) |
| Odd thing today out of the blue, at approximately 8am (I do remember the exact moment) a sense of peace and knowing decending upon me. Just a calmness, a whatever will be will be moment. A sense of knowing that no matter what everything will be alright in the end. [more...] | ||
| 14 Jul 04 | Dead slow and complete stop | (14 Jul 04, 6:31 PM by alexandraa) |
| Just had a good friend staying for a few days while she was in london on work related business. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! ! [more...] | ||
| 10 Jul 04 | Catiff's Question - Britain's sexiest place | (10 Jul 04, 4:25 PM by alexandraa) |
| The Travel Inn near Euston of course hehehe. For about 8 mths it regularly saw Colbeh and I arrive on a fortnightly and sometimes weekly basis. Ohhhh the tales those walls could tell. It was a time of exploration for us both and boy oh boy did we ever explore. Control, canes, floggers, control, did I mention control? Oh and canes, more canes, crops lets not forget crops. Hmmm bathroom taps, well I leave that to your imagination but they're a handy thing to hold on to. [more...] | ||
| 8 Jul 04 | Lookalike? | (8 Jul 04, 6:33 PM by alexandraa) |
| Well I've had a lot of things said about me, i know this is hard to believe but not all of them good things. Then yesterday someone told me I look like Sophie Dahl. Ohhhh ahhhhhh I thought how nice, when she was fat, he added. Ho hummmm I thought now what does that mean? He was clearly doe eyed and adoring so i took it as a compliment, granted he was on the merry side of a couple of wine glasses and married (why are they always married?) and i suspect submissive but hey a girl can accept a compliment cant she? Sophie Dahl whit wooo how nice, fat or skinny come to that. [more...] | ||
| 6 Jul 04 | work & GOSSIPPPPPP ! ! | (6 Jul 04, 8:01 PM by alexandraa) |
| Welllllllll despite not getting promotion they've made me an offer at work about taking on some extra stuff. Got to negotiate salary with personnel though tomorrow so we'll see. Hold your breath cause i'm going in HARD and FAST. You cant beat hard and fast. Cool to get more money too - that never goes amiss hehe. [more...] | ||
| 4 Jul 04 | Roman Corsets & control | (4 Jul 04, 2:45 PM by alexandraa) |
| Sounds like a completely plausible theory evil twin except of course that Romans were known for gorging to the point of vomitting and beyond... So how could they do that with corsets on? Unless that's why they were ill of course. I can honestly say I barely ate last night and it was only on unlacing of the corset an unbelieveable 7 hours later that I realised I was hungry. Great diet just wear a corset everyday. My ribs are still settling back into their normal place. [more...] | ||
| 2 Jul 04 | Underground corsets | (2 Jul 04, 3:02 PM by alexandraa) |
| Well from start to finish I had a grand time yesterday. I thought I was going to be scared and shy and missing the feeling of belonging to someone and being safe. Well it appears I had the devil in me (stop that thought right there you rude lewd people). After much moaning and bewailing and brattyness regarding deciding what to wear I did eventually settle on a leather mini and a black satin corset (after the third try on)(thank you thank you evil evil twin) stockings (yes the lace tops showed hehehhehe what a tramp) and boots. [more...] | ||
| 1 Jul 04 | Mad Cockney Taxi drivers and Panda Eyes | (1 Jul 04, 12:34 PM by alexandraa) |
| I missed the last train home last night. How bad is that? Sounds like i'm a mad impetuous fool doesn't it until I tell you the last train home was at 8.30. Fuck me there's a sodding tube strike on and so what did they do? Decided to have engineering works on the train line I can use as an alternative. How good is that for timing? Bollocks is what. Bastards. So I got a taxi as the only sensible alternative, the tubes by 9pm still only running for about 3 stops and then dumping you in the middle of nowhere. Well in the middle of London obviously but certainly nowhere near my flat. [more...] | ||
