| 19 Nov 06 | This, That & a Bit of the Other (3) | (20 Nov 06, 11:38 PM by northernwench) |
| I need to get my hair cut, meant to do it this weekend but somehow or another its ended up being a busy one. Started in the best way with fulsome frolics the details of which I am forced to keep secret otherwise I'd have to kill you. Mmmm shame I know but if you scroll back through the blogs I suspect you've read it all before. It was good, it was fun. Nothing like a bit of the other to set a smile on my face. [more...]
|
| 16 Nov 06 | If You knew Your Date of Death? (3) | (16 Nov 06, 11:02 PM by lucky_1) |
| Funny old day today. I had to take one of my team to task. Her Mum is dying, has maybe a month, maybe a week or two. Stomach cancer, secondary cancer riddling her and everything that could be done has been done. It's just a matter of trying to control the pain till the end. My team member had been throwing herself into her work growing gaunter and more manic by the day. I've banned her from work now, sent her home to come to terms with her situation, treasure her last moments with her mother, smooth her relationship with her husband, support her Dad and explain to her children what's going [more...]
|
| 15 Nov 06 | Tonight is Cynical Night (4) | (17 Nov 06, 5:11 PM by t_judd) |
| Once upon a time I found a magical place where dreams come true and fantasies can be lived out. A place where I was treated like a princess, loved, cherished, possessed and protected. Somewhere where I could give everything in safety, indeed somewhere where I could lower those barriers, stop protecting myself because someone else stepped in to protect me better than I could. [more...]
|
| 14 Nov 06 | Unrelated Interrelated Things & Jingle Bells (1) | (14 Nov 06, 6:43 PM by caprycorn) |
| I've had a stressful couple of weeks of it of late. Been flat out busy at work, days seem to last about 5 mins. A good kind of busy though, but knackering when day in, day out, is like that. Big stuff going off on Thursday fingers crossed for that, (go on cross your fingers) but if it goes to plan then it will be more work than ever. Stuff in my private life too, yep the 90% of my life that you lot never get to hear about. Things to come to terms with, things to plan for, things to look forward to. [more...]
|
| 8 Nov 06 | In The Members' Dining Room (9) | (10 Nov 06, 6:13 PM by melody_A) |
| I was at the House of Commons not so long ago for a reception. Seems odd you can hire rooms in there for events, but you can. I know because I was there. A double whammy really, prestigious event in a venue you'd go to just to go and see the venue. The chair of the event kept on calling it an august location (as in noble and impressive), but kept pronouncing it August, but it's November my brain kept protesting. If he said it once he must have said it a dozen times. [more...]
|
| 6 Nov 06 | Pain or What? (7) | (7 Nov 06, 10:03 AM by lucky_1) |
| I don't like pain. Ghastly, really unpleasant, difficult to cope with. So why do I crave it? Why when I feel stressed or horny do I want pain, the feel of the flogger on my back, the cut of the cane across my arse? Why do I love it more than I hate it, in truth. Why do I actually desire it as part of my sexual playtime? [more...]
|
| 4 Nov 06 | Step Away From the Submissive | (4 Nov 06, 9:20 AM by alexandraa) |
| I've been in a funny mood this week. Short tempered, irritable, tired, all coated with a general topping of random anger. I've been working really hard, those work days where you start early and before you know it 10 minutes seemed to have passed but it's already time to leave. If I wasn't disciplined about my work/life balance I'd have been working till 9pm every night this week. [more...]
|
| 29 Oct 06 | Sex, Sadism and Fucking, and Sex (18) | (29 Oct 06, 1:58 PM by alexandraa) |
| I had thought yesterday. Mmmm I know, a thought on a Saturday, that's a bit much isn't it? As much as I am the masochist, as much as I enjoy a good thrashing as part of my sex, I'm not into sadism and masochism for its own sake. I'm a hedonist. My hedonistic delight in SM will take me a long way but ultimately its all about sexual pleasure for me. I'm purely and simply a hedonist who loves control and SM all within sexual boundaries. [more...]
|
| 26 Oct 06 | Blonde Moments and My Box (1) | (26 Oct 06, 9:27 PM by Purely_Nix) |
| I've finally succumbed to the modern television age. After careful encouragement, gradual drip feeding and then out right delivery of scorn at my overwhelming access to just 4 TV channels (yes not even Channel 5), I was finally persuaded, by peer and Dom pressure, to bite the bullet. Well actually I impulse bought at ASDA, spending a whacking £23 on a digital box thingy. Just think how much chocolate you could buy for £23. [more...]
|
| 22 Oct 06 | Squeak Free (1) | (22 Oct 06, 11:17 AM by alexandraa) |
| That's the bed not me, I'm still prone to squeaking when a cane/crop/whip is waved at me. New bed delivered and erected on Friday. Sighhhhhhhhhhhh, how absolutely delightful and delicious. I hadn't realised how conditioned I'd become to trying to move as little as possible while I slept. And inded how often the bed must have been waking me. I've had two amazingly blissful deep nights sleep AND without the usual beating/buggery/fuck fest sessions to bring that on. Not of course that lack of buggery/beating/fuck fests is anything to cheer about but all things come to she who waits, I find. [more...]
|
| 21 Oct 06 | Protection and Security (1) | (22 Oct 06, 11:17 AM by Sweetiejar) |
| Dominance and submission can mean so many different things to so many different people. There are more than enough labels and definitions flying around than you can shake a stick at. I was reading a pretty ordinary book today and there was a line within it where the heroine of the scene was talking about her current male lover. She was saying how she could see he needed to have his life controlled and that made him feel protected and happy. [more...]
|
| 12 Oct 06 | Sleepless Nights (3) | (16 Oct 06, 10:09 PM by subtrainer69) |
| Finally, after well over a year of pondering and browsing online and in person, debating and deliberating, asking opinions of all my friends and family and then ignoring them, I have chosen a new bed frame. Mostly I was driven to decision making because my current beloved bed has become so squeaky and creaky it wakes me up when I turn over. As for the noise it makes when some bedroom action is going on, that's like several cars are being crushed during Jamaican tin drum jamboree. It's enough. [more...]
|
| 10 Oct 06 | The Weekend & Name Changes | (10 Oct 06, 9:42 AM by alexandraa) |
| Busy busy busy weekend and yet relaxing and well chilled out too. Good company, good food and good wine what more can you ask for? Oh good sex, I'll leave that bit to your imaginations. [more...]
|
| 9 Oct 06 | Blogging For Backlash | (9 Oct 06, 7:51 PM by alexandraa) |
| Yes I am a sado-masochist. I spent my formative years hiding my sexuality. That disgusts me when I look at it, and when I think the current government wants to introduce yet more laws to restrict our lives. How dare anyone restrict our free choice of sexuality? How dare they? Please explain this to me because I cannot grasp why. [more...]
|
| 3 Oct 06 | The Touch of a Whip (16) | (4 Oct 06, 6:15 PM by alexandraa) |
| A flick, a flutter, a touch on your shoulder like a spider saying hello. A tap, a brush, a few strands of hair knocked astray. A point sweeping across your back barely there yet leaving a mark, you know it. A cut, hard, fast and fleeting then back again, heavier, gone again almost before you sense it. A crack, sharp and loud, a slash as if a steel edge were laid across you. [more...]
|
| 27 Sep 06 | Abuse and Anger | (27 Sep 06, 10:41 PM by alexandraa) |
| It was a long time ago. I lived with anger without realising it. I don't know why I didn't realise it. I don't think I twigged actually until the relationship was in total meltdown, about 5 years ago now. I'd started talking to Colbeh already by then and he said, you know you are in an abusive relationship don't you? I knew at that point that I was but hadn't truly faced that fact until that moment. The first of many things he made me face. [more...]
|
| 26 Sep 06 | I Should Be So Lucky, Lucky, Lucky, Lucky! (4) | (26 Sep 06, 10:25 PM by The_AntiSub) |
| Oh yes, we (FT and I) are off to see Kylie. Yep yep yep. Planning our show girl outfits already. Lots of glitter obviously, goes without saying. Tickets and hotel all booked for January. You're jealous right? Hahaha! I laugh at you, and, what's more we have tickets really nearly the front. Oh yes. Just checked on ebay and I could be reselling them already for half again as much. They'll be worth a fortune in January. [more...]
|
| 25 Sep 06 | Can There Be Submission Without Dominance? (3) | (26 Sep 06, 7:01 AM by Moonbeam) |
| Labels, not my favourite thing as my regular readers will know, but I do have definitions I apply to my own emotional relationships, and expectations that run alongside those definitions. To me submission and dominance are sides of a coin, equal and opposite, in balance and attuned. Sadism and masochism similarly so. [more...]
|
| 20 Sep 06 | Completely Impatient (1) | (22 Sep 06, 5:10 PM by alexandraa) |
| Why use one word when you can talk for twenty minutes to impart the same level of information? I'm not the most patient of people. My most hated thing is to go to meetings and be kept waiting. Especially when the people concerned have begged and pleaded and understand the pressures on my working day. I've learnt my lesson in times gone by and keep very strict hours. Either it gets crammed into that or it's bollocks to it. Work life balance and all that. It's very important. [more...]
|
| 18 Sep 06 | Time Travel & Tiffany's | (18 Sep 06, 7:17 PM by alexandraa) |
| I went back in time today. I went to a meeting with an organisation I used to work for 4 years ago. I'm developing some new areas of work with them that I think will prove interesting and exciting for both our organisations. I had mixed experiences of working for them, some good, some bad but still have a lot of respect for their approach and field of work. They are still the kind of organisation I'd look to work for in the future. Albeit at a seriously senior level, of course!! [more...]
|
Donate!
