| 4 Nov 08 | So. | (4 Nov 08, 6:11 PM by Rebecca_P) |
| ..two years ago today we headed out for our first ever fetish party. Today we were supposed to be going out for dinner, but he could only do "sometime after 8.15" and I have to be in bed at 9 for an early shift in the morning. He could "maybe" rearrange but wouldn't know until "later", and I was tired and hungry. It's so nice to be thought of. Really. [more...]
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| 16 Aug 08 | Boring! (12) | (21 Aug 08, 7:53 PM by exoticarose) |
| Is there anything more depressing than a whole free evening stretching before you with nothing to do? It's not quite six and I'm already bored..! |
| 10 Aug 08 | Sore All Over. Is Good. | (10 Aug 08, 12:59 PM by Rebecca_P) |
| Had a friend to stay this weekend, or part of it at any rate - he's just left. Originally we thought he'd be able to stay until early Sunday evening so that we'd be able to pop along to LFF, but plans were changed. [more...]
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| 9 Aug 08 | *yawn!* (1) | (9 Aug 08, 10:38 AM by ladylash) |
| Not much sleep, lots of misbehaving and some bruises already.. that *is* the definition of a good time, right? |
| 29 Jul 08 | Limits (1) | (29 Jul 08, 8:16 PM by granny_goodwife) |
| I don't like being tickled. Perhaps it's the loss of control it causes; for a supposed submissive, I rather dislike not being in control. [more...]
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| 27 Jul 08 | Sweet Torments | (27 Jul 08, 11:56 AM by Rebecca_P) |
| Well, off I trundled to Sweet Torments again to give it another shot, this time with an agreement to meet someone there specifically for play so I wouldn't feel so out of sorts. It was odd how much difference it made; whereas before I was in the corner, huddled and mostly keeping my head down, this time I had my head up and was looking round, actively looking at people and things. [more...]
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| 25 Jul 08 | Feh. (3) | (25 Jul 08, 11:47 PM by totallycoverme) |
| I miss being played with. I miss the days where my head wouldn't shut up and it could be cured by simply being told what to do for a while. I miss having someone around to talk to. I miss having someone to look after. I miss having someone to cook for. I miss the stability of knowing who I am supposed to be. [more...]
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| 19 Jul 08 | No More. (7) | (22 Jul 08, 3:08 PM by collared_kat) |
| Well, I got lost several times, both coming and going. I stayed until about 10:30, at which point the incessant nagging in my head got unbearable, and having pretty much not even spoken to anyone, even the two who made an effort, I packed it in and came home. Decision made: No more clubs or parties if I'm attending alone. Ladies' Munch, maybe Watford occasionally acceptable, no others. Markets only if I have something I specifically wish and need to purchase. If I needed proof - and I didn't, really, I just gave into the optimistic side for once - that I'm incapable of being social, that was [more...]
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| 19 Jul 08 | Sweet Torments | (19 Jul 08, 9:49 AM by Rebecca_P) |
| Decision made... as long as I'm well enough tonight - and don't get lost - I'll be heading along to Sweet Torments for a little while at least. |
| 18 Jul 08 | Hmm.. what to do. | (18 Jul 08, 1:49 PM by Rebecca_P) |
| I'm toying with the idea of going to Hades Dark or Sweet Torments, but I'm undecided at the moment. It may all be moot since I've not been very well this week and on Tuesday we ended up going to hospital. I was supposed to be going to the doctor today about it but I wimped out, so I'm not really sure what is going to happen now. |
| 13 Jul 08 | Lovetrix Fetish Festival (7) | (15 Jul 08, 4:50 PM by Rebecca_P) |
| Wow, the Lovetrix Fetish Festival. Where to start? [more...]
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| 18 Jun 08 | Going Out | (18 Jun 08, 9:20 PM by Rebecca_P) |
| I've just booked my tickets for the Lovetrix Festival. I wasn't sure if I wanted to go or not since I'll be going alone - Master's flat-out refused saying He's not interested - but I figured I probably ought to make the effort. Maybe it'll even give me an incentive to do some exercise over the next few weeks. (Ha.) [more...]
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| 1 Jun 08 | Still Stuck In Limbo (3) | (2 Jun 08, 10:11 AM by just_the_two_of_us) |
| We were supposed to get the whole situation bashed out and sorted this weekend. It's been over two months since He moved out and we're still no closer to a solution. The trouble is that I pretty much need all or nothing - if He's not moving back in, then I don't really want anything further to do with Him. Or so I tell myself. The trouble is I'm terrified of living alone... I never have done until now and it's been a disaster pretty much from start to finish. My weight has shot up again, to worse than it was before we met up. In short, all I really want to hear is "yes, I'm coming back..." [more...]
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| 23 May 08 | Boredom. | (23 May 08, 9:55 PM by Rebecca_P) |
| Oh, yay. Another weekend. A three day one. Three and a half when you consider I got off work at 1pm today. And I ended up not having choir practice, but my suggestion that we go to CCK was turned down, and I didn't feel like going alone. |
| 10 May 08 | Saturdays (4) | (10 May 08, 7:37 PM by Chiefwhip) |
| I've decided I hate Saturdays. The whole day is stretching in front of me and I have nothing to do, and all I want is a good, hard caning. |
| 5 May 08 | Sunshine Through The Clouds? | (5 May 08, 9:59 PM by Rebecca_P) |
| On the one hand, things are looking up. The course at work is improving - we had our first test today, not one of the pass-or-you're-off ones, just a learning check. Probably a good thing because only three out of the sixteen of us would have been left on the course! Another half a dozen or so would have been resitting it the next day, and the rest would be booted back to their previous roles without much further ado... [more...]
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| 28 Apr 08 | How Much Longer? (6) | (28 Apr 08, 11:04 PM by gal_rosa) |
| It's becoming obvious that one of the main differences between Master and I is that I take everything about ten times more seriously than He does. (And about ten times more melodramatically... guh.) [more...]
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| 26 Apr 08 | Feh! | (26 Apr 08, 6:41 PM by Rebecca_P) |
| And yet another Saturday that I actually have free, with nothing to actually go out and *do*. I can't even go round and see Master because I did so yesterday, which didn't really go all that well, either. I should probably tidy up the house a bit, since Master's supposed to be coming round tomorrow evening, but I can't make myself do that at the moment; I want someone to spend time with, instead. |
| 18 Apr 08 | April 18th 2006. | (18 Apr 08, 12:24 PM by Rebecca_P) |
| Today is two years since Master and I met up IRL for the first time. Here's a copy of what I wrote about it at the time.... [more...]
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| 16 Apr 08 | The Paradox | (16 Apr 08, 2:52 AM by Rebecca_P) |
| I need a lot of social contact. [more...]
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