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| 26 Nov 10 | Naked (2) | (26 Nov 10, 4:27 PM by inappropriate) |
| I'm sparkling tonight, and I know I deserve to be. Having put in so much effort to shed the three superfluous dress sizes that somehow crept up on me in my twenties, tonight is all about celebration. Finally I'm leaving the shadows I've hidden myself in for so long. [more...] | ||
| 20 Oct 10 | Oh happy day (2) | (22 Oct 10, 11:16 AM by Felix_culpa) |
| I realised the other day that I could honestly say, hand on heart, that I love the fact that I'm a masochist. [more...] | ||
| 5 Oct 10 | Strangers in the night (3) | (5 Oct 10, 10:14 PM by CiM_10) |
| It all feels so awkward now. Lying in this bed, my back towards his. I can tell he's asleep, but in spite of the exhaustion that always comes afterwards I've been completely unable to settle and let unconsciousness claim me. [more...] | ||
| 29 Sep 10 | This will hurt me more than it hurts you (3) | (29 Sep 10, 5:30 PM by Who_Knows) |
| I stripped him from the waist down and left him exposed to public view. I held him and soothed him whilst he was tearful and afraid. I forced the vilest-tasting things into his mouth. I restrained him as strangers painfully prodded his most secret places, leaving him screaming and shaking in my arms. And it was those same arms that kept him from fighting as yet more strangers drugged him into unconsciousness. Our eyes were fixed on each other the whole time: his red-rimmed and brimming with unshed tears, mine filled with smile and love . [more...] | ||
| 8 Sep 10 | I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy (3) | (9 Sep 10, 11:18 PM by inappropriate) |
| I find the buildup to intense play extremely distressing. The tension, the fear, the sick knot of anxiety and apprehension. It's not exactly a pleasant sensation. But it's even worse knowing that a friend is going through those same feelings as their own session approaches. [more...] | ||
| 2 Aug 10 | Tendonitis | (2 Aug 10, 10:32 PM by LittleEl) |
is not much fun. That is all  | ||
| 1 Aug 10 | It's always the quiet ones (3) | (2 Aug 10, 6:58 PM by caprycorn) |
| I take no small amount of pleasure in the fact that I'm probably the last person anyone in my vanilla circle would ever imagine would be involved in all this kink/pain/fear style of sexual expression. I'm about as far from alternative as it's possible to be. Conservative (with a small c) in clothing and musical taste. No body mods (I don't even have pierced ears, for heaven's sake!). in short, nothing that might make me stand out or raise eyebrows in a crowd. [more...] | ||
| 30 Jul 10 | Contradictions | (30 Jul 10, 9:28 PM by LittleEl) |
| The way my mind and body react to pain play really fascinates me, because it all seems so confused and contradictory. [more...] | ||
| 30 Jul 10 | Aftermath (1) | (30 Jul 10, 6:09 PM by inappropriate) |
| It hurts to walk. It hurts to sit down. It hurts to lie down. It hurts to eat. It hurts to laugh. It hurts to take a deep breath. In short, it hurts to undertake virtually any normal day-to-day activity. [more...] | ||
| 27 Jul 10 | Waiting (1) | (27 Jul 10, 3:46 PM by Relaxed_and_Chaotic) |
| I'm a little tense today. [more...] | ||
| 15 Jul 10 | Pornography (17) | (18 Jul 10, 1:08 AM by Dollface) |
| Sometimes it is very very necessary. Like tonight. [more...] | ||
| 6 Jul 10 | Open minds (6) | (7 Jul 10, 9:08 AM by Jezzebelle) |
| I like to think that (in common with many people on this site) I have a pretty liberal attitude to sexual practice. But having today been accused (by a non-IC-based individual) of lying about being openminded, I'm starting to wonder whether in fact my critic is correct. [more...] | ||
| 30 Jun 10 | Changing direction | (30 Jun 10, 12:50 PM by LittleEl) |
| I'll admit it - I've had a mildly switchy side to me for a few years now. Pretty tame, more play than anything else. And that suited me just fine. But not now. [more...] | ||
| 21 Jun 10 | Judgement Day | (21 Jun 10, 11:10 PM by LittleEl) |
| There's been a real glut of judgmental posts on here lately. Actually, on reflection, it can sometimes seem that sitting in judgment is the whole reason most of us signed up to an IC account in the first place. [more...] | ||
| 17 Jun 10 | Limitless possibilities | (17 Jun 10, 7:53 PM by LittleEl) |
| No safeword. No limits. [more...] | ||
| 19 Mar 10 | Are submissives just lazy? (4) | (20 Mar 10, 1:22 AM by hollythedolly) |
| "Submission - isn't that just sexual laziness?" a friend of mine asked over drinks recently. "I mean, you're just leaving someone else to make the decisions for you." [more...] | ||
| 14 Feb 10 | Don't you feel like crying? | (14 Feb 10, 9:11 PM by LittleEl) |
| It wasn't the content of the letter that made me cry. [more...] | ||
| 1 Feb 10 | Of Shame and Simba (4) | (2 Feb 10, 12:19 AM by inappropriate) |
| "T." "Yes, love?" "My knickers are around my knees." [more...] | ||
| 5 Jan 10 | Mutual Assured Destruction (1) | (5 Jan 10, 6:13 PM by the_unsub) |
| It's always struck me that attending scene events (munch/club/party/whatever) requires a lot of trust. For many of us, this side of our lives is obviously kept secret from a lot of people - and yet when we socialise we are effectively allowing strangers into the secret, and asking them to keep it for us. [more...] | ||
| 28 Nov 09 | Seven-year itch (2) | (28 Nov 09, 8:18 PM by Dominion) |
| It's just over seven years since I tentatively placed a profile on IC and dipped my toes into BDSM, both in a virtual and real-life sense. Doesn't seem possible - and what amazes me is how much I've changed since November 2002. [more...] | ||
