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| 1 Jul 10 | Just be..... | (1 Jul 10, 8:52 AM by Blackvelvet) |
| The darkness of the last few months is beginning to lift. I can see the sun shining and hear the birds singing again. Even going to work does not hold the same feeling of dread that it did a month ago.Although I just can't seem to get there today. Switching the computer on was the fatal mistake ! [more...] | ||
| 12 May 10 | A bleak day - what a mess ! | (12 May 10, 6:01 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| Well what a mess I made of today... locked my gym locker and after a good work out came back to find kit missing and locker empty but locked ! Bizarre ! After had cried and felt sorry for myself then searched other lockers to find my stuff in neighbouring locker ! Sign of a bad day ! [more...] | ||
| 6 May 10 | Change | (6 May 10, 9:20 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| As the winds of Beltane blow in a new season there is change happening. The time has come to move on. I sat by the river in Clun on Monday and watched the Green Man Festival. The Green Man of course won the battle. A really good weekend of fun at the festival and cycling. A chance to step of the treadmill of life and ponder where next. [more...] | ||
| 12 Oct 09 | A Dark Ponder | (12 Oct 09, 8:57 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| The joys of a high are suddenly tempered with the lows of a dark day. Maybe it is being tired or maybe it is just a sub low. [more...] | ||
| 12 Oct 09 | Just a smile | (12 Oct 09, 1:32 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| 4 days after we met and my smile is still there. [more...] | ||
| 5 Oct 09 | Darkness and Light | (5 Oct 09, 1:11 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| This time of year is so emotive. The days are starting to feel darker and even during the day the light almost seems dull. [more...] | ||
| 30 Sep 09 | Peace and Quiet | (30 Sep 09, 1:49 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| Life has been a real mix these last few months. A broken ankle, operation to mend it, building work on my house and college work needing completing. [more...] | ||
| 4 Dec 08 | An offer | (4 Dec 08, 9:35 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| Last Saturday was a wonderful night out in my new corset. It was just with friends at a Christmas party but for the first time in over a year I felt truly wonderful. [more...] | ||
| 5 Nov 08 | A tighrope that we walk | (5 Nov 08, 9:58 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| I was always aware that the fine line that I walked between my normal every day life being a married mum of two boys and my secret life was a very fine one. A tight walk that at any time coud have plunged life into a dark downward spiral... [more...] | ||
| 11 Aug 08 | A toe in the water | (11 Aug 08, 4:31 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| After a long period of not being around I have been trying to slowly put a toe in the water and re-build my confidence about being out and about again. A scary thought.... [more...] | ||
| 15 Mar 08 | Stress and a need for release | (15 Mar 08, 8:09 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| This last few weeks have been seriously stressful. Work, home, kids all ganging up to make life really hard. [more...] | ||
| 12 Mar 08 | So very very tired....... (4) | (14 Mar 08, 9:18 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| Why, oh why is life so hard ? [more...] | ||
| 18 Feb 08 | Quiet pondering | (18 Feb 08, 7:35 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| It has been a quiet few months. Being ill and having my tonsils out really really made me unwell and as a result I just went into hibernation. I am not a good winter person. Better since I stopped working in a box of an office but still a very tired weary winter person. [more...] | ||
| 20 Nov 07 | Been quiet (2) | (30 Nov 07, 9:00 PM by blondandtall) |
| I have been quiet for a while. A combination of sheer panic about going into hospital on Friday and just a desire just to hide from the world. It has been a very dark few months with only a few snatches of brightness and hope. [more...] | ||
| 29 Oct 07 | And so hospital I go (2) | (30 Oct 07, 4:12 PM by knight6) |
| After a whole summer of tonsilitus I have finally got my operation date.. 23rd November.. [more...] | ||
| 11 Oct 07 | Ouch (4) | (19 Oct 07, 11:03 AM by knight6) |
| The long silence is becasue yet again I have got tonsilitus and another dose of antibiotics. This time the equivalent of a grit tablet that you dissolve and then try to swallow. Turns it into a gritty glass of water... yum !!! [more...] | ||
| 30 Sep 07 | Unhappy (6) | (4 Oct 07, 7:03 PM by knight6) |
| Well yet another weekend of hell in my house.. [more...] | ||
| 14 Sep 07 | Smile ! (3) | (17 Sep 07, 1:48 PM by Blackvelvet) |
| Tonight I am feeling much better. A day of long talks and clearing the air. I hate to fall out with people. It upsets me. [more...] | ||
| 13 Sep 07 | Thank Goodness for Friends (4) | (13 Sep 07, 2:23 PM by Qwoin) |
| Today I am going to the hospital to have my really bad tonsils looked at. In a way I am desperate to have them sorted even if it means having them removed. In another way I feel very alone. No one to go with me and hold my hand. No one to ask the questions I am bound to forget and no one to support me. [more...] | ||
| 11 Sep 07 | Ouch (6) | (12 Sep 07, 10:42 AM by Blackvelvet) |
| Not had a good month and it is just getting worse. [more...] | ||
