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| Alex_01 |
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| 14 May 07 | still here (3) | (16 May 07, 5:18 PM by Alex_01) |
| Now back online and have missed all my friends and this site. Also got a very retro gt750 and new house. Life seems to be going well.......so what's comin next? Why worry...be happy. Will no doubt hear from those who matter. See you all around people. Will see my friends down Newcastle way at end of month. [more...] | ||
| 3 Sep 06 | cowards (1) | (3 Sep 06, 5:07 PM by mini_velvet) |
| I have been quiet too long and now feel it is time to put some facts to put matters straight for those who are still meddling. [more...] | ||
| 18 Jun 06 | BBB (1) | (18 Jun 06, 12:31 AM by mini_velvet) |
| So cool, i'm going to be at my first BBB. Anyone who i've chatted to online give me a shout. It will be so good to put faces to names. See you all there. [more...] | ||
| 17 Jun 06 | yaaayyyy (8) | (18 Jun 06, 4:40 PM by GothixChix) |
| Goooooooooodddddddd moooooooooorrrrrrnnnniiinnnngggg pervy land. [more...] | ||
| 21 Mar 06 | thoughts on me | (21 Mar 06, 11:22 AM by Alex_01) |
| How did i take that wrong path, [more...] | ||
| 20 Mar 06 | a hard and scary day | (20 Mar 06, 5:28 PM by Alex_01) |
| Today I have had to face a whole lot of things in my mind that I have managed to ignore or pass the blame onto other people for. This was and still is being one of the most cathartic event in my life, there having been only one thing worse than this session today at the hospital. The thing is although I can see and understand the immense value of it I am now filled with such guilt and shame at what I have done to someone who never deserved my behaviour. The hardest truths in life seem to be those related to ourselves and actually understanding ourselves. This will make me a better person now that [more...] | ||
| 20 Mar 06 | life | (20 Mar 06, 10:10 AM by Alex_01) |
| I saw the beauty and took it in hand, [more...] | ||
| 19 Mar 06 | packing (3) | (12 Apr 06, 12:29 AM by Deviant_Bitch) |
| Me and my best mate are currently packing and putting into storage a whole house, just the two of us. It is bloody hard graft and not helped by the fact that currently i have a bug of some sort which has meant 4 days without eating and almost constant headaches. Still things have to be done so we get on with things. I am suprised at how well i'm coping with everything just now as not long ago the pressure would have seen me fold. I did have my first diabetic shut down the other day, what a scary thing. Luckily my mate new what to do and dealt with it, plenty of lucozade orange. I will need to [more...] | ||
| 18 Mar 06 | night out (4) | (18 Mar 06, 11:29 AM by goodghirl) |
| Tonight was a good night out with a couple of freinds and i relaxed so much. I was in a place i havent been in in years and in terrific company. It was unfortunate that the terible two couldnt make it, the dreaded lurgy got one of them. met a friend there who was in great form and had both me and my best mate in giggles and we had a laugh as well. She enjoyed her night and we almost ended up in the cathouse, but old age and discretion won out in the end. [more...] | ||
| 17 Mar 06 | group therapy | (17 Mar 06, 8:48 AM by Alex_01) |
| I will admit i now feel totally drained and washed out having had my depression group meeting last night and a really terrible nights attempt at sleep. [more...] | ||
| 17 Mar 06 | happy birthday (1) | (17 Mar 06, 10:01 AM by doozerbob) |
| Happy birthday doyoumindplease, hope you have a good day. I am sorry we wont see V for Vendetta together today. I was looking forward to that. I will wait till we can see it together. | ||
| 16 Mar 06 | days | (16 Mar 06, 12:50 PM by Alex_01) |
| Each day is new an unwritten page, [more...] | ||
| 16 Mar 06 | an update | (16 Mar 06, 10:31 AM by Alex_01) |
| I am wondering why i post here and why im being so frank and honest about my life just now? It's not for any justification or self gratification. I have come to the conclusion that it allows me to be what i should have been for the past few years. Honest, open, more trusting and less judgemental. People matter and i have not always treated folk with the proper respect or attention. There has been a distance i've created to stop anyone getting close enough to cause me hurt or pain. Only thing was i started to do that with the one person who never gave anything other than love, friendship, affection [more...] | ||
| 14 Mar 06 | job interviews (1) | (14 Mar 06, 1:29 PM by Deviant_Bitch) |
| Considering how many I conducted when I was a site manager you would think going to one wouldn't phase me. Wrong, I am as nervous as hell. One thing I do know is that not getting this job will not be seen as failure or rejection or lead to revisiting that part of my thinking which is now finished. All it would mean is just not this time. I still find it amazing how this is going. I am still finding positives and going forward despite knocks and problems. [more...] | ||
| 13 Mar 06 | For.....well you know who you are. | (13 Mar 06, 12:32 PM by Alex_01) |
| For one who is loved.You and all who know us know who this is for. It is written as just how i'm feeling right this moment and with nothing other than honesty and feelings and love. Alex. [more...] | ||
| 13 Mar 06 | such a cool web site to find | (13 Mar 06, 11:32 AM by Alex_01) |
| http://www.thefetishcentre.co.uk/index.php?cPath... [more...] | ||
| 13 Mar 06 | life | (13 Mar 06, 9:00 AM by Alex_01) |
| This post is just to let some thoughts out of my head and "voice" some realisations that are hitting home.Also I want to thank those who have been in touch and sent memo's and e-mails. [more...] | ||
| 12 Mar 06 | yipppeee (2) | (12 Mar 06, 8:33 PM by DevilMia36) |
| Ok. A first for me in umpteen years. It snowed last night and after there was enough snow to stay on the ground I went for a walk in the local park. I felt so alive with the snow stinging the face and the breath in my thraot and chest. After a while I felt a grin spread as I realised something I just had to do right there and then. I made 2 snow angels, holding hands, and put me and my wifes names below them. I lay there like a headcase making snow angels and laughing. I must have looked mental to anyone who might have seen me. God it was fun though. [more...] | ||
| 11 Mar 06 | first in a long time | (11 Mar 06, 5:13 PM by Alex_01) |
| Just because i feel this just now and wanted to share it. [more...] | ||
| 11 Mar 06 | ongoing life (6) | (12 Mar 06, 7:35 PM by doozerbob) |
| Well i really did do a cracker. On thursday night i went and had a long discussion with the person who my psychiatric advisor said i should speak to. Apparently this person is the root reason for my difficulties in relationships and social behaviour. Having had a long frank discussion with this person i returned to a home im losing on the 20th. I'm still packing and boxing and doing all the practical things. Life has to be managed and things done. [more...] | ||
