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Interwoven, entangled, inseparable? Or can you delineate, draw boxes around them? Seems some can. For some it is indeed pure power exchange, for others straight up no nonsense SM. Some wierdos I believe just do bondage (what's that about ???? 
). And others keep their sex in a sock until the BDSM is back in the box.
I've thought about this a lot. Well, you know, it's a nice topic to think about while you trip through the tedium of the working day. (Lord knows this morning's meeting took the biscuit for boredom). Weigh it up, what would you choose if you had to choose one thing?…. I can't do it. I want it all. I'm greedy. Sex, Ds and SM. Intricately threaded together like a multi coloured tapestry. Wrap it round my body and flood my mind with it. Drown me in it.
The pleasure of SM, the thrill of pain, is enhanced by the knowledge someone is controlling me. Even while they inflict some deviant tool on me, knowing I love it, knowing I hate it, knowing I need it, the extent of pain, too light, too heavy, is out of my control. I enjoy the game as much as the pain. The not knowing, the submission to the strokes, the acceptance and lack of battle with the sex weapon wielder. Plenty of battle with the pain, but submission to the act. There lies the excitement. The control lies elsewhere, power is exchanged, as pain is applied. The thrill of submission, physical and mental.
The release of Ds, give up all tensions, slip away from the day, have someone strong to guide and nudge. Find freedom in control. A rock that supports, arms that cherish, a mind that directs. Boundaries you understand, clarity and honesty. Give and take to the nth degree. Emphasised by submission to pain play. To know the hand that cherishes will be stern too, severe and sadistic. To know the mind that adores you will be demanding and strict, give no inch. Does it not all add a dimension unobtainable elsewhere?
The physical intimacy of sexual pleasure with a person you desire. Links it all. Ds till your toes curl and SM full of joy and laughter. For me an intimacy not quite found elsewhere.
Can I pull out a thread without the whole unravelling? I'm greedy, greedy, greedy. Don't get me wrong, I find joy in each strand. Pleasure in sex, pleasure in being guided and mentored, pleasure in SM play. Fun and laughter all the way. But when you throw it in all together, the right mix, with the right person, ah that's icing on the cake.
Relationships are compromise, give and take, we bend and bow to our lovers needs. In time to come I don't know what compromises I will make. You can never tell what comes next in this world of surprise.
But I know what I want. I want it all. And if I can't have it all? Well there's always chocolate and diet coke…. I know, so much excitement, how do I contain myself?
| 3 Aug 06, 10:08 PM fitzcaraldo UK(BA), 6 yrs  |
Exxxxxxxxxxxxactly so ! It's the question that has been consuming me : If BDSM is not the the gateway to 4th dimensional sex, then what is it about ? (I generally class vanilla as 2 dimensional !) Although I accept that there are some for who(m) the deviance is the end result. Escaped from the parallel universe | |
| 3 Aug 06, 10:09 PM caprycorn 8 yrs |
And don't forget that the diet coke cancels out all the calories in the chocolate! Fucking fab blog and I'll have to join you on the greedy step. Just chuck some chocolate at me, I'll be fine xxx My imaginary friend thinks that you have a problem |
