Posted by Hislilpuppy on Sun 2 Jul 06, 8:26 PM to Hislilpuppy's blog.
I was at a friends the other day chatting over nothing and stuff when the subject as it does with women turned to SEX!!!!
We we talking about this and that when i proclaimed that i was a PILLOW PRINCESS and was proud of such thing lol
It has taken me years to come to terms and accept this side of me ....i struggled with sexual partners wanting me "Give" back sexually ....I never really wanted to ...but did just because i felt it was fair and it was after all "their turn"!I would , (in the past!) talk to other girls and when i heard that they enjoyed reciprocating /giving , i felt a deep sense of guilt because really inside ....i didnt enjoy it !!!! Also when i was new to the scene , more guilt was added as i realised it wasnt very subby to want to get all the attention and not wanting to "please my dominant" ...But i found with Lee that when I was" Forced " I massivly enjoyed it...or even every blue moon i was allowed to touch!!! shock !!!! There were other issues as ...how can i be Bi when i actually i dont really honestly want to do much sexually with either sex.....I want things done sexually to me....BUT....... Most partners would say i was "in-experienced" sexually ....in a way they were right...did i care ....er not really on some level because inside i felt the way i felt about sex and didnt see how it was going to change!! on another level i massvily felt that i was wrong..that i was weird and not right !!! yikes!!
No please dont get me wrong ....sometimes i want to give (just not very often) lol ....nope, generally i just love getting all the attention!!! ....I relaised when it wasnt expected or demanded i didnt mind giving to my partner ...mostly i wanted all for me ...blissfully enjoying what my partner can do!!! smiles... I massivly enjoy being forced into sexual acts!!!! YUM!!!
I found that i was a pillow princess only after meeting a Stone Butch women!!! Well after all a pillow princess is the opposite to a stone , the ying to the yang!!!!
So back to the title THE PPP .....
At my friends i discoverd others like myself who enjoy being who they are!!!
PILLOW PRINCESS & PROUD
I feel that badges and a society must be set up to celebrate those of us who say " hey I am a pillow princess and proud of it!!!!!!!"
Care to JOIN please sign up !!!! (though i would find it funny if no one joins lol)
GUESS I AM THE ONLY ONE !!!! ROFL
Edited Mon 3 Jul 06, 6:28 PM by Hislilpuppy
| 4 Jul 06, 2:16 PM amira_S 8 yrs  |
Nowt wrong with being a PPP!  |
