FUCK! it's official - i have no heart... (19)

these people who are everything EVERYTHING to us, drift away eventually when the immediate personal intimate connection has gone. the only truly important person in your life is YOU. all else is transitory. parents, partners, children.

when they are there, they seem everything.

the only constant in your life is YOU

my father was with my mother for 40 years. he's been with someone else for 25. my mother is a distant memory for him. and, i must admit, for me. although i was a grown adult when she died.

love. feel pain. the pain will pass. the love... sort of diffuses yanno? (pass me my kaftan)

this is so true. we think we are 'grown' in our twenties. personally, that decade seems to have been a 'blip' in my existence. (and for many people i talk to)

we are sort of acting like adults... but hang on... no-ones home.

It's certainly true for me. I thought I had all the answers, as I've aged I realise I didn't even know the bloody questions.

judy

If I've edited my post, it's probably because I'm anal about my grammar and spelling. (There, now I don't have to keep typing it out).

I can't decide if this thread depresses or cheers me. I sure as hell agree though.

Hmm. I think I shall find somewhere peaceful to sit and say 'Om'

Dilly

It depresses me. I still dream of "Stay with me while we grow old.... And we will live each day in spring time...." but spend most of my time going Ommmm

Am I alone in finding that one sentance so very very sad.

Sweetiejar
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i think it's how it happens. i carry the 'sense' of her... but it's sort of blurred...

for the last 25 years i have spent one day a year where the focus of the day is her. increasingly the day has morphed into a day of general happiness, contentment and peace. it's a very significant day for me; and i don't allow outside distractions. of course i remember her anecdotedly... but mainly it's this indistinct 'sense' of her...

I know what you mean but I still find it very sad.

xx

Sweetiejar
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The more you sweat in practice...the less you bleed in battle.
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