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| ShadowRose |
To thine own self be true and know thyself before you try to know another.
Reality bites, doesn't it sometimes?
This has been a rollercoaster week for me, and I know I'm not the only one - both in my life and from reading other people's weblogs.
I'm not going to go into depth about what happened here. But I will say to anyone who thinks about serving me in future - think very carefully about the fact that I have a sub already. If you can't cope with that, for whatever reason, don't approach any closer. And a couple of hours before you are due to meet him is not the time to tell me that his existence is an impediment to "us".
The thing that confuses me most about what happened was that poppet's existence was known and, apparently accepted, from the first contact. The thing that saddens me most is that if this barrier to serving me truly was a surprise to the one who came then he didn't know himself as well as he or I thought.
Not all is doom and gloom however. poppet is home, his son did stunningly well in his GCSEs - 1 A+, 7 As and 3 Bs :D and I have wonderful friends whose sympathy and support I value greatly - those I know from this list know, I hope, how much they have comforted me.
Plus I am invited to be a godmother to vanilla friends
sproglet next summer 
) This invite came after, and
despite, the fact that I explained what I'm doing with
my life; showed them my new floggers and, probably,
started their two and a half year old on the road to
dommedom last night. You should've seen the look of
devilment, delight and acquisition in the lil'
darling's eyes when she picked up the bootlace
flogger. Looks like I know what to get her for her
18th birthday 
Hold those thoughts folks or reality will bite - very hard.
Take care all.
Edited Sun 25 Aug 02, 5:27 PM by ShadowRose
