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I have just had the most horrible feeling. Like nothing I have ever felt before. It has left me feeling hollow and raw as if my whle core has been just scooped out.
I quite clearly saw a relationship that has been a key part of my life die. I know how it will happen, the words that will be said, I just don't know when. Sooner rather than later, but the thought of knowing the how and why but not the when is like a weight around my neck.
I have few true friends and cherish those I do. Recently one of them lost his partner of twentfive years to cancer. In a matter of weeks she was consumed and died. He cannot yet cope with the pain so just avoids it, working on and waiting for it to fade. But it doesn't, you just learn to cope without that part of your life. The grief remains, solid, implacable, immovable. I now know that is how it will be for me.
My life will learn to flow around what remains afterwards but it will never go away. Perhaps with time the edges will be worn away and it will be less painfull to live with. I just sit and wait now, hoping I'm wrong.
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| 22 Aug 05, 8:24 AM domino_scotland UK, 7 yrs  |
Premonitions like that can shake you. Just try not to turn it into a self-fulfilling prophecy. hugs domino |
| 22 Aug 05, 11:00 AM DK1369 UK(M), 9 yrs |
Rather than sitting and waiting maybe just live every moment as if it was the last and enjoy all the love you have in the present.
THE MORE FREELY I BREATHE, THE MORE I SEE WHO I AM. THE MORE I SEE WHO I AM, THE MORE I LOVE WHAT I SEE! |
