Posted by melody_A
on Sun 21 Aug 05, 11:08 AM to melody_A's blog.
Banquet time. 26 courses, half of them edible, the other half very tasty, but of no nutritional value.
I'll leave mel to describe the tea-lit scene, and to bemoan her heroic success in rolling consecutive 'ones' of the die on two occasions (meriting 11 strokes each time!) and rolling first-throw sixes on three occasions. It's about the third of these sixes, which I'd like to write. It was prior to Course 11 (of 13).
Now, mel has been taught to 'appreciate' the cane, first and foremost. Initially, it was certainly not her favourite, but she is now somewhat acclimatised to its particular authority. The 'entrée' to Course 11, however, was an unusual one, a floppy beach shoe, size 11. As she had thrown a 'six', she was to receive this 'of the best' - and she was totally unprepared for its very different, and convincing, signature. From the fourth stroke onwards, she was on the verge of failure, but, somehow, she stayed still to the end. She rose very, very slowly, in obvious distress. I complimented her on her bravery.
The cherry pie and ice-cream lay untouched on the table for nearly 15 minutes; yes, she was, by now, fairly full, but that was not the reason. Every few minutes, I could see her eyes turning to the side-table, on which the two remaining implements awaited her. There is nothing remotely comforting about a Lochgelly tawse or a riding crop. She would look at them for a few moments, then avert her eyes. Before the beach shoe, she had been enjoying the evening; now, she was shaken.
Finally, she ate her cherry pie, saying little, still occasionally glancing towards the tawse and riding crop. It was clear to me that she really did not wish to continue, even though she had said nothing and was probably unaware that I had seen her glances. I was minded to try and see it through to the end, although, in the end, it could only happen with her compliance. I whispered encouragement to her, had her undress, asked her to roll the die. A 'five' - of the tawse. Very scary at the best of times, far more so now. I picked up the tawse.
Mel hesitated. Then she started to adopt the position, only to stop mid-way. It was probably only 5 or 10 seconds, but it seemed longer. She was motionless. Then, slowly, she lowered herself onto the table, fighting back all the fears, ignoring the voices that must have been telling her not to go there. I was almost spellbound; you could see the way she was fighting her fears - and winning. I laid the tawse across her bottom, then lifted it. She did not move. It would have been easy to apply five gentle strokes to ensure that she did not have a submission breakdown, but she's no fool and would have known, if I had. A firm stroke - and not a flicker of movement. I continued, 2, 3, 4, a slight movement of the buttocks but only slight, ... 5.
Very slowly mel rose. Now, for a Dom, there is something magical about all submission but the submission which comes from some hitherto-unknown place, deep inside, is rare and very special. That is what mel gave me tonight. Speaking later, she confirmed what I thought, indeed, knew; she had done it for me.
She was clearly beyond any enjoyment herself, but she wanted to please me, and, somewhere, she found the extra strength, some special courage, to please her Master. I treasure that. She came back for the 13th session too, another really hard hill to climb when you are totally drained, and saw the evening through - total submission in extremis.
The really special moment, though, which I shall always remember, was when, badly shaken, she slowly lowered herself onto the table to receive five of the tawse. That was a submission of very great courage and love. I love her and am so proud of her. I have told her so. She is sleeping now, emotionally drained. When she awakes, I hope her memories of the evening will be as happy, positive and very special as are my own. Thank you, mel. xxxxx
| 21 Aug 05, 11:23 AM kikkiMM UK, 9 yrs |
Beautiful blog...so lovely to read a Master's feelings about a "scene" (hate that expression but can't think of another!)
and how he appreciates the emotions going on!
It is precisely this "art of perception" that some Dom/mely ones are sadly lacking! Thank you, kikki xxx kikki{MM} "Callipygian ideal" according to MM. | |
| 21 Aug 05, 11:26 AM alexandraa UK(NW), 8 yrs  |
How deliciously fabulous Thank you for sharing alex x Be careful what you wish for | |
| 5 Sep 05, 10:26 PM Mrs_EStim UK(WC), 8 yrs |
Sounds as though you both have throughly enjoyed "dining" in style. See you both soon xxx |
