Posted by Sangronun
on Mon 8 Aug 05, 2:01 AM to Sangronun's blog.
I am almost 43.
I have had a drink problem since I was 14. I didn't admit it until I was 26. The girl that helped me see it will forever have my gratitude.
I am not an alcoholic. I just learnt bad drinking habits.
I do not crave alcohol. I have a Stella Artois beer cooler full of alcohol. There is wine, whisky, vodka, Bacardi and dooleys in the fridge. I do not drink at home, unless its one of my parties.
I can go months without a drink. Have gone a year or two in the past.
I used to be able to limit myself to 3 pints. I am struggling to do that recently. I only drink in company where I feel safe and relaxed. Then I relax too much.
What happens is simple. Once I start to drink I do not want to stop. Something stops me stopping. Part of my brain tells me no more but it isn't heard.
I don't get violent or aggressive.
I do get more MGish – people who know me will understand what that means I hope.
I am not perfect. I fuck up. I upset and hurt my friends and put them in difficult positions.
I truly regret every ounce of pain, hurt, or emotional distress I cause to my friends and others when I am under the influence and I apologise to all of you unreservedly.
I am going to control my drinking again. I do not want to lose any of your friendships. You are more important to me than alcohol. I will prove it.
MG
| 8 Aug 05, 2:08 AM Rosalee UK, 7 yrs  |
(((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))) I too have had times where I've drunk far more than was good for me. I hope you can get on top of this.
"Just because you're paranoid, don't mean they're not after you" | |
| 8 Aug 05, 2:43 AM Pi_dom UK, 6 yrs |
I had noticed... Estella felt a little uncomfortable, I think... | |
| 8 Aug 05, 2:52 AM kethry UK(LE), 9 yrs |
MG, that took guts to write. I don't know what prompted this blog, but i hope your friends stand by you and support you - and i think you know where we'll be. kethry{BP}/ke'chara{BP} xx | |
| 8 Aug 05, 6:54 AM gilly_Dk 7 yrs |
it takes strength to see our faults and even more to admit to them, that in my eyes makes a Dom and a Man. good luck x
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| 8 Aug 05, 8:46 AM salach IE, 8 yrs |
I am not an alcoholic. I just learnt bad drinking habits. I don't get violent or aggressive. [/quote]It depends on what your view is of what constitutes an alcoholic.If your drinking is causing you problems in your life that generate a post such as yours then there is a real chance that you are an alcoholic...for the simple reason that most people don't even consider that they have a problem until it has progressed way beyond what would be considered normal. Alcoholism is progressive, it gets worse, left untreated it will kill..a slow lingering miserable death. I was treated for alcoholism when i was 17, I didn't stop drinking until I was 32. Believe me it just gets worse.i suppose the question to ask yourself is...If I'm not an alcoholic and drinking is causing me to suffer, then why do i continue to drink? I wish You luck. Feel free to memo me if You want. salach (a grateful recovering alcoholic)
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| 8 Aug 05, 11:01 AM Der_Morgenstern UK(LA), 7 yrs |
A brave thing to post, it's not easy to admit to problems with drinking, I've been there and even tried AA. My problem was depression and stress, once I got over those I was fine and I'm now at the stage that quite often I can't really be bothered to drink. I hope you can work this out and you know you have plenty of people ready to help, if you need to talk you know where I am. SK You let me violate you... You let me desecrate you... You let me penetrate you... You let me complicate you... Help Me... NIN Closer | |
| 8 Aug 05, 12:00 PM Demonatrix 7 yrs |
Always thought you were at your 'best' as the 'real' you, in the park, with me and your dog...almost human even. Well done.
"My favourite colour is bruise" Edited 8 Aug 05, 12:01 PM by Demonatrix | |
| 8 Aug 05, 12:49 PM Rosalee UK, 7 yrs |
I'd go along with the depression and stress thing for the reason I've had problems with alcohol at times. When I'm feeling better, I can have a drink or two and then stop. I don't think this is uncommon.
"Just because you're paranoid, don't mean they're not after you" | |
| 8 Aug 05, 2:36 PM Seraf 8 yrs |
I had similar issues mate thats why I haven't drank now for over 9 years. You are a brave man for acknowledging that and putting yourself into the public forum this way.
Is coming Kinklusive be part of it!!! | |
| 8 Aug 05, 2:49 PM tigerlili UK(WN), 7 yrs |
You have taken the first (and biggest) step to beating this MG, and I know you'll do it. HUGS AND CUDDLES tigerlili xxx
The only ones who fail are those who do not try. |
