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| just_iana |
I've been on IC years, and aware of my submission for a lot longer...
but throughout that time I've always been totally resistant to the idea of playing in public, and not in a "make me" way, but in a way that the very thought made me close down.
yes I've fantasised about public play, and even shared those fantasies, but they were never about clubs..
so last year i went to a club, with friends, not to play, and i found it pleasant but surreal, - i felt a bit like i was a spectator, rather than in any way part of the event ..
so roll on Christmas, one of the best i can remember, and a conversation about us going to a club, and this is just testing me out, yes? i didnt think we were really going...
not even when He mailed to put our names down...
not even when He chose what I'd wear...
even the night of Playspace i was wondering when he'd say it was ok, i didnt have to go - eventually i even asked if we could not go
He said no, we were going
we got ready together, and that felt good, natural, and still i thought we might not go...
then we were in the car...
oddly the moment i felt most vulnerable all eve, was when i had to get out of the car for him to park
then we were inside, and Ama took us on a tour, and i started to feel my heart might just calm down - even though i was a bit in awe of all the equipment.
we knew a couple of people there, that felt good, and it was nice to spend time with them...
and then....it was time...
He took my hand, and took me to a bench,...
and then everything else stopped mattering...
just Him and me...
and nothing else mattered...
every fear and hesitation spanked away, stroke by stroke
i remembering Him lifting my skirt, the moment my fears would stop the fun...but it didn't , it really didn't , it was just more of something so very good i couldn't have stopped it even it was asked of me- it was simply sublime.
we sat and chatted more,(and ate, god i was hungry, and Ama does a good spread!)
then He said lets play some more, and we looked at a few bits and fixed on the Cross..
i thought i'd struggle, i've fainted once when i had to stand and play, and another time i felt very faint, no idea why, so the Cross felt a bit too brave...but the restraints helped, and He put a big thick belt thingy around my waist and that made me feel incredibly secure, and He started His magic...
and somewhere in it all i said please can we go home now...and got the most loving kiss, and He wrapped me up and took me home...
i liked Playspace....very very much
Edited Thu 26 Jan 12, 8:57 PM by just_iana
| 26 Jan 12, 9:18 PM Play_Space UK, 21 mths |
(Note: no favours changed hands for this wonderful blog. LOL)
@just_iana - This blog is beautiful. Thank you so much. Not just for the blog, but because that is exactly what we wanted to create for people. It means a lot when we see that it brings people what we hoped it would.
PS: We hope you come back soon. | |
| 27 Jan 12, 1:01 AM Maximotom 4 mths |
nice blog...did he *hag you ? | |
| 27 Jan 12, 2:03 AM Cagoulion UK, 7 yrs  |
I've known ya a long time too and this is a lovely weblog because you've stuck with the journey through thick and thin and it's great to see you have such a rewarding experience. Top marks to your Sir for taking such good care of you. Best Wishes Cag | |
| 27 Jan 12, 7:57 AM just_iana UK(SS), 6 yrs |
thanks i'm sure we wil be back, thank you again for the efforts you put into pulling off a great event x | |
| 27 Jan 12, 8:00 AM just_iana UK(SS), 6 yrs |
thanks Cag, for the blog, but mostly for being one of those wonderful people who've just been positive and friendly all the time i've known you. xx | |
| 1 Feb 12, 10:58 PM mis_understood UK(SL), 4 yrs |
Did you by chance find some fur lined wrist cuffs and a pair of ankle cuffs after last party? Careless me has lost mine, oops mis_u misunderstood always |
