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Last year, I did the 40 questions template and enjoyed it. This year I'm feeling more prosaic.
2011 has been tricksy. It's had some really lovely people in my life and positivity - and also a fair few setbacks, and a lot of very slow progress towards goals I'm forever changing. However, with my Open University module seemingly going well (and what I shall be spending the rest of my NYE working on) and a week left until I hear back from Cambridge as to whether I've an offer for next year, I really have turned a corner in working out what happens next.
I started my new job in February. I'm now on a permanent contract there, and they love me. I still don't have enough money - and I know that financial situations have been a recurring theme of life this year - but moving on into 2012 some changes are going to happen one way or another so that things get resolved long term. I may be moving away from London, but in doing so will open up other doors for personal growth, I hope. And I can save money for Cambridge, or whatever else happens next. My manager has been very supportive about getting me a transfer to a store up north - they really do love me. It's not a high end or great job, but it does. It's by far the longest I've ever held down a single role, and I've never been permanent anywhere before.
I've been in love all year, happily entwined with someone since last Christmas - which means the relationship has had more than a year of life already and is still pretty damn good. He's my boyfriend and my Daddy and my person and I think it's fair to say we're learning a lot together. I think me moving away is going to be horrifically difficult, but I don't think it's insurmountable.
2011 probably hasn't included as much kink as I might have liked. I'm still filthy on the inside (:P) but, through various domestic situations and a complete lack of time on everyone's parts, finding spaces to try new things haven't been as regular as one could desire. Hopefully, in the next year, that'll change! But I've been able to relax into kinks I didn't think I had, or things I didn't think I liked: I've done more needles, and am ready to think about doing that from the top's perspective, I've done rope and not hated it, I've co-topped someone in public, and I've learnt to deal with rules and power exchange on an ongoing basis. I've probably realised that I'm quite a switch, and had big discussions about my sexuality, identity and orientation. I've been able to revel in my little girliness, with people that understand and encourage that - Daddy got me Pokemon for my birthday and Ace Attorney for our Christmaversary!
2011 also has been completely up and down with regards to body image and dieting, which is always a recurring theme with me, and so I suppose once more we're hoping that 2012 brings change. But I've appeared in photos, which was a BIG resolution from last year, and whilst I have things that I'm not 100% comfortable with I actually don't hate the way I look any more. Part of that is down to the boyfriend, and my sexy sexy friends, but the rest is down to a sea change in my attitude and the way I feel about myself. Which is positive.
I hope that no matter what you're doing tonight, be it kinky or non, with friends or alone, you're having a wonderful end to this year and ready to see in the next!
Fox. xx
