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| Soul_Alloy |
on Fri 30 Dec 11, 8:55 PM to Soul_Alloy's blog.
Don't you just hate that feeling where you feel like you need to say something but can't figure out what the hell to say?
That is me now. I feel awful and tired but I can't seem to let it go.
That temptation just to run and hide gets stronger and stronger. My depression has virtually ruled me this year and as the regrets pile up the future looks bleaker. Hah, catching myself there looking through the murk-tinted glasses of despair.
Not all is lost, but what to hope for? What to strive for? I had dreams and passions and where the hell have they gone?
So come 2012 I have but one goal at the moment - get my depression under control.
Three more weeks and I can start taking the new meds. Four to five months and I should finally have that counselling appointment. By August perhaps I'll feel normal again.
I hope that my worst fear won't be realised and my son moves away. I honestly don't know what I'd do if that happens. It is not yet certain thankfully, merely an ever increasing possibility.
It's looking to be a long year...
| 30 Dec 11, 9:40 PM fungun 5 mths |
Thats a really thought provoking blog m8.
New year can mean so many things, new starts and hopes, new plans and goals : new fears and worries, for me and many i believe it is a confusing mix of all.
The future is never certain and never the way we thought it might be,
But i beleive that always the future is formed by our present actions, little steps in the right direction get you there in the end 
Thats where I am at the mo, after years of plodding on in the wrong directions out of force of habbit, im finally back on track and 'making the most of things' and it seems to be working
Really hope this is your year m8, and all those fears/worries aren't realised and if they are that a way to do what you have to presents itself
with hand on heart m8, all the best for 2012 |
| 2 Jan 12, 12:55 PM Soul_Alloy UK(PR), 5 yrs |
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