I Feel All Undone. (6)

Posted by kinky_kitty on Wed 30 Nov 11, 3:34 PM to kinky_kitty's blog.

It's always difficult, after a weekend of filth and debauchery. Sometimes I feel all broken and confused. And when I get home, I find it hard to put myself back together.

Long distance is hard. It's worth it. But it's so fucking hard.

After this weekend just gone, I'm feeling particularly undone. We played something completely new to both of us, and it was amazing. Weird afterwards, the Man Shape said. I can understand that. Age play is not as 'straightforward' (not sure if thats the right word) as other stuff we've done.

I did love it though. It was every bit as hot in reality as it was in my head. Calling him Daddy felt so natural. As natural as Sir.

So now I'm feeling all weird. I'm back at home, away from him. Back at Uni and general everyday shiz. It's odd, having to adjust back to normality when all I want to do is play dirty games with the Man.

ETA I just had a tiny pout because it's cold and the wind is too loud and I can't sleep. I want my daddy.

Exactly this is why I feel all undone at the moment. Trying to go about my business in an unmaintainable headspace sucks.

Edited Wed 30 Nov 11, 10:48 PM by kinky_kitty

Replies

30 Nov 11, 3:49 PM Trusttolove UK(LS), 13 mths	i really feel for you. i know only too well the long distance heartache but it sounds like you have some beautiful memories.....having a daddy is such a gorgeous thing
30 Nov 11, 3:55 PM kinky_kitty UK(LE), 5 yrs	Thank you Open up your eyes. You keep on crying baby, I'll bleed you dry.
30 Nov 11, 5:22 PM Dollface UK, 6 yrs	I feel your long-distance pain; but I remember a rather Hallmarky but apt quote: "absence does for love what the wind does for a flame: it extinguishes the weak, and feeds the strong." Chin up, lovely. xxx "The less said about life's sores, the better." - Oscar Wilde.
30 Nov 11, 6:18 PM kinky_kitty UK(LE), 5 yrs	Ooooh thats purrddyy! Thank you lady X Open up your eyes. You keep on crying baby, I'll bleed you dry.
7 Dec 11, 8:12 PM Adorabelle UK(PR), 2 yrs	Heya gorgeous, So totally late with this reply, but it's the thought, right? I used to feel that way when I was away from my Daddy, and it's horrible, I know. I used to spend quality time with friends, eat something scrummy like chocolate or cake or curl up in bed and have a late night phone call with him to try and forget the pain - they all worked in their own ways! hugs xx ETA: because I suck at grammar...
7 Dec 11, 8:32 PM kinky_kitty UK(LE), 5 yrs	Thank you gorgeous was totally worth the wait tho! Mwaahhh xxx Open up your eyes. You keep on crying baby, I'll bleed you dry.