15 Nov 11, 12:55 AM
carenza_lionheart
UK(NN), 24 mths
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Thank you for having the courage to share this. Often our most extreme fantasies are kept hidden, sometimes even from ourselves. I have some dark desires that I would love to explore with the right person, but I keep them hidden away for fear of being judged. The one who claims to be innocent
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15 Nov 11, 1:03 AM
Skyhook
7 yrs
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Does the thought of, say, having a toe-nail pulled out have a similar effect?
Dibilitating but certainly less of an embuggerance than a missing toe. I'd imagine there would be quite a closeness in the build up to the 'ceremony'; the anticipation, the calm of having your foot and leg restrained - the final acceptance, plier presented, soft words trying to balm the pain to come.
I'm not (deliberately!) being an arse here, just genuienly curious about the mindset of such a sacrifice. "Me? I'm all about the hugs.
And cruelty. Hugs and cruelty basically."
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15 Nov 11, 1:09 AM
Shypeachybottom
UK, 20 mths
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Skyhook wrote:
Does the thought of, say, having a toe-nail pulled out have a similar effect?
Dibilitating but certainly less of an embuggerance than a missing toe. I'd imagine there would be quite a closeness in the build up to the 'ceremony'; the anticipation, the calm of having your foot and leg restrained - the final acceptance, plier presented, soft words trying to balm the pain to come.
I'm not (deliberately!) being an arse here, just genuienly curious about the mindset of such a sacrifice.
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Ughhh.. brings back bad memories of having this done >20 years ago after I crushed my big toe in a slight accident... it was so *not* a good experience, even though the doctor injected local anaesthetic into my toe.. I can laugh about it now, but at the time, what freaked me out the most was when he very calmly gave my mother a kidney-shaped dish and told her to hold it under my injured foot "because it will get very bloody when I pull the toenail out" 
If I had to have something permanent done, it would definitely not be removing a piece of me, it would be a small tattoo or piercing (I have no tattoos and only my ears pierced, so either would be a big deal if I did that *for* someone) There's a somebody I'm longing to see, I hope that he turns out to be, someone to watch over me
I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood, I know I could always be good, to one who'll watch over me (Ella Fitzgerald)
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15 Nov 11, 1:13 AM
inappropriate
UK(CF), 3 yrs |
Skyhook wrote:
Does the thought of, say, having a toe-nail pulled out have a similar effect?
Dibilitating but certainly less of an embuggerance than a missing toe. I'd imagine there would be quite a closeness in the build up to the 'ceremony'; the anticipation, the calm of having your foot and leg restrained - the final acceptance, plier presented, soft words trying to balm the pain to come.
I'm not (deliberately!) being an arse here, just genuienly curious about the mindset of such a sacrifice.
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I can see what you're saying, but I'm not primarily aroused by the chopping off itself, in fact the idea is (obviously!) petrifying. The things that's most hot to me is having part of my body missing afterwards.
For reasons I don't understand, the idea of losing a toe nail just isn't the same; whilst there would be something missing, I don't think I would see beauty in a damaged nail bed in the way I could a little stump. |
15 Nov 11, 5:09 PM
Dollface
UK, 6 yrs
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Beautifully expressed, as always xxx "The less said about life's sores, the better."
- Oscar Wilde.
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15 Nov 11, 10:23 PM
Skyhook
7 yrs
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inappropriate wrote:
Skyhook wrote:
Does the thought of, say, having a toe-nail pulled out have a similar effect?
Dibilitating but certainly less of an embuggerance than a missing toe. I'd imagine there would be quite a closeness in the build up to the 'ceremony'; the anticipation, the calm of having your foot and leg restrained - the final acceptance, plier presented, soft words trying to balm the pain to come.
I'm not (deliberately!) being an arse here, just genuienly curious about the mindset of such a sacrifice.
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I can see what you're saying, but I'm not primarily aroused by the chopping off itself, in fact the idea is (obviously!) petrifying. The things that's most hot to me is having part of my body missing afterwards.
For reasons I don't understand, the idea of losing a toe nail just isn't the same; whilst there would be something missing, I don't think I would see beauty in a damaged nail bed in the way I could a little stump.
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Thank you; I do understand what you are saying, the appeal for you.
Without actually understanding the desire itself, if that makes sense. "Me? I'm all about the hugs.
And cruelty. Hugs and cruelty basically."
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18 Nov 11, 9:15 AM
Wolfeeh
UK(CF), 8 yrs
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At the risk of sounding judgemental, go and spend some time with some people who have had body parts amputated, voluntarily or otherwise. I do appreciate this is just a blog but still. This is one thing where fantasy and reality should stay separate. |
20 Nov 11, 5:01 PM
inappropriate
UK(CF), 3 yrs |
Wolfeeh wrote:
At the risk of sounding judgemental, go and spend some time with some people who have had body parts amputated, voluntarily or otherwise. I do appreciate this is just a blog but still. This is one thing where fantasy and reality should stay separate.
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I'm talking about a single toe, rather than an above the knee/elbow amputation. As I'm sure everyone can understand, there would be an enormous difference in the loss of functionality.
I know two (below the knee) amputees and I am very aware of how bloody difficult life was in the aftermath for one of them. I'm also aware that both are now, a decade-ish on living lives very similar to their fully limbed peers. As such, like any disability, I don't think losing a limb has to be a tragedy for the rest of the person's life.
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25 Jan 12, 12:25 AM
InquisitiveDom
UK(CB), 4 mths |
inappropriate wrote:
Desire: my baby toe
It's a funny old thing my kink. It seems to be evolving; becoming deeper, darker, more depraved. All of this seems to be for no apparent reason, without the necessary D part to fulfil the D/s desires.
For a long time now, I've wanted, within a long term relationship, to be scarred; marked as his property. I still want that. But in addition, I'm fetishising the loss of an appendage; something small, a baby finger would be absurdly hot. Realistically, I think the loss of function associated with losing a finger (how would I ever type my blogs?!), and the way that a missing finger would be noticeable to all, means that a toe is the more practical option. More specifically the baby toe on my left foot.
I fantasise about the patch of baby soft scar tissue, about how my shoes would fit differently, even about phantom pain. Ultimately, it's all about how that patch of skin was all his. I hope that it would affect my balance a little; enough to make me aware of how important he was to me, without resulting in me landing face-down on the pavement too often.
Please don't misunderstand me; I'm no masochist. The idea of the pain is almost unbearable. My desire isn't about the removal itself, but the happily ever after; nine digits instead of ten.
I've come up with a plausible list of activities that might have resulted in a toe being chopped off. My current favourite is an extreme sports accident, something with a bit of drama. More likely, I think I'd go for some kind of alcohol induced clumsiness; those who know me would be more likely to believe it. Obviously this would require medical attention, but nay matter; I can't imagine it'll happen for some time, if at all, and I have friends in a whole variety of medical roles, so I wouldn't need to waste NHS resources.
And yet I wonder, despite the current intensity of my desire for this, if it would all disappear in a cloud of pragmatic fear if it became a realistic possibility. Logic tells me not only am I trying to run before I can walk, I want to enter the Olympic 100m final. But then, doesn't everyone fantasise about great things?
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As an amputee myself i have only two finger you will see in my picture i can tell you about this a lot, whats involved an about the pain of it. i actually saw an article of an american couple they were about 30 or something, who both cut off their wedding ring fingers instead of giving a ring to each other. its a fairly simple process, but you just need to be ready for the pain an wrap things up properly because of the blood.
I can tell you about things if you want to contact me.
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