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| LeatherDaddi |
yes, indeedy been quite a while since I last posted on here. So, what's new with me?..hmmm...Well I had another spinal surgery in January, spent more time in hospital than I liked/wanted too, due to nasty reaction to the steriods they put me on! Quite scary for a few hours. Finally got out, only to find my main support/carer had a very nasty infection, so a mad phone call and a quick car trip to my "other" Family, and I was looked after so well, it was a shame to have to go home, but I needed to see if I could cope at home on my own. The next few weeks were difficult to say the least, but I had some amazing people around me, and wanted/needed for nothing. 2 months after the surgery the pain was back, and with vengence! I couldn't drive for nearly 4 months, it nearly send me loopy, again I had more offers of help than I could have imagined, I am blessed with the people in my life.
So, the last few months things haven't gone as I hoped, I have developed severe anxiety and agoraphobia, as well as having to handle crappy pain levels! They can't do anymore surgery, not until things get really bad..ie: I lose feeling in my arms again! I am still taking the meds.i rattle when I shake..lol.and trying to deal with the anxiety stuff.
As for anything BDSM related..that's stuck down the back of the wardrobe, gathering dust for now..but it's still there, I feel it every now and then..the low growl..the heightened senses..the blood pumping that sounds like tens of drums pounding in my body..the Beast sleeps, hibernates!
Thank you to those that have helped keep me sane, for the hours you have listened, for the times you have just let me be quiet, for the food<nom nom>..lol..the laughs, the smiles and the amazing hugs that help me to feel human. I Love you All..always.xxxx
