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on Sun 7 Aug 11, 12:21 PM to Buzz22's blog.
Last night was my folks golden wedding anniversary. All the family got together and we had a proper party. Looking at my mum and dad, who obviously are getting on now I feel so very lucky to have them. I worry about the future and what my life would be like without them. So many people of my age don't have their parents around any more. Don't get me wrong, they annoy the hell out of me at times, especially my dad but when push comes to shove they have always been there for me. I have to admit, I did have a few too many but I needed it and deserved it. It was good to let my hair down with my family. I felt at that moment very happy and very content with my lot. In truth I have not been happy with my life for years. My mum cornered me and told me that by Christmas she wants to see me with a girlfriend but not just anyone. I at this point tried my best to explain of where I am. I don't really want one at this moment in time. I have been single now for over a year and during that time I have had a few flings. Every single one of them has been nice but none of them have been right for me. In truth over the past 8 or 9 years I haven't been with the right girl. I am happier being single. Nobody is moaning and whinging in my ear. Nagging me about this or that. Talking non stop about what they want with no consideration of my feelings. This is the problem that I have found, everyone is so self centred and because I give so much of myself, my feelings become unimportant.
So maybe my future is to be on my own, is that such a bad thing. My folks where meant for each other and last nights party was lovely. My dad giving out sarcy comments about my mum but you could tell the way he looked at her, he looked at her with pride. That is maybe something just for them but it's obviously not for me. I am happier being alone than being with the wrong person.
Bx
