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| dominalush |
Day 5...is this the time things start to become a struggle whenever you are trying to change ingrained habits...for me,having formless,structure-less days due to long term illness has become normal life,something which I am really wanting to change.So Im getting up same time,getting in the shower and writing a(hopefully)inspiring weblog on I.C.Today Im struggling.A relationship which was very important to me was broken recently partly due to my behavior...apoligies have been given and accepted but it is still broken.Today is that persons birthday.I had thought we would spend it together,we always made each other happy and I so wanted this day to be special.Its also 2 days till my daughter Wendy would have been 25 if she was still alive.So Im feeling very sad,I feel I failed(yet again)to sustain a healthy relationship,plus(logic has no part to play in this as any parent who has lost a child will tell you)I feel I failed to protect my child and keep her safe.So todays inspirational thought isnt as up-beat as usual but very appropriate for how I feel today.
ITS ALWAYS DARKEST BEFORE THE DAWN.
Edited Wed 6 Jul 11, 1:00 PM by dominalush
| 6 Jul 11, 1:44 PM MissP UK(EN), 8 yrs |
Don't dwell on those negative thoughts, or I'm coming to slap you! count your blessings, for you are blessed | |
| 6 Jul 11, 2:22 PM dominalush UK(RG), 5 yrs  |
Thanks mate...my arse has been well and truly kicked!Am off for a lovely bath then a prelim chat with a life coach!!Back on track.But Miss P....dont EVER go to work for the samaritans will you....Lol  to give pain is my pleasure...... | |
| 6 Jul 11, 2:46 PM Lady_Alys UK(RG), 6 yrs |
Your both stars!!! Sorry I'm not much help at the moment mim, my own family shit is getting in the way of important friendships. Your in my thoughts every day.
I'd like MissP as my life coach please DoN't WaStE YoUR TiME On A MaN WhO Isn't WiLLiNG tO WasTe ThEiR tImE On You... | |
| 6 Jul 11, 2:46 PM Helen_Back UK(MK), 4 yrs |
Hope your day caries on improving, and hope your dawn breaks into amazing sunshine x | |
| 6 Jul 11, 3:06 PM MissP UK(EN), 8 yrs |
I'd get their bloody phone bill down! | |
| 6 Jul 11, 3:22 PM cain1954 UK(GU), 5 yrs  |
Cruel to be kind !! Yes sometimes its the answer ! | |
| 6 Jul 11, 3:23 PM Ama_Sidero UK(GU), 7 yrs      |
*hugs* Mim. Remember that the clouds from those dark days are just keeping the sun from coming through. There will be a break in them soon. @Play_Space - Next party is Friday, July 22 from 930 - 3 am. Info found here: http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/301137/0/... Road Trip to the Sea!!! Next tentatively planned in October.....Just elapsed...More info here:http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/305429/0/... | |
| 7 Jul 11, 12:27 AM karmacoma UK(RG), 4 yrs |
Life is a coin. We were taught that there are only two sides to a coin, two sides to a story, but truth is a coin has three sides. The third side being the edge, being the only side that keeps the two together, being you, therefore without the third side, there is no coin, there is no life, there is no you. You may feel failure, but you also know you tried. So, if you are struggling and feeling trapped by the negative, flip the coin, see the opposite, see the positive and realise you are the third side that balances the two, keeps the angels and the demons together, and know they are beautiful, because they belong to you. Tom Waits once said "If I exorcise my demons, I lose some of my angels too" This is how I think twice, and thinking twice puts it all into perspective for me. We all have access to a coin, a life. Edited 7 Jul 11, 12:29 AM by karmacoma |
