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This blog has been a couple of weeks in the making.
I am I think going to write it in two halves within one.
Its written for me, for me to try and understand whats happened, its not written from a bitter stand point, its more my working my way through whats happened and trying to understand why.
There are many questions, still, yet I know they'll never be answers to them.
The title is poignant in its way as I fell for all the lies, I fell for the dream.
I thought my life was nicely planned out.
So I thought ~ yes.
The story in its way was four years in the making.
You have made your decision.
There's no changing that or any going back, the trust I placed in you is gone, trust is a funny thing, once broken it can Never be repaired or rebuilt. you made your decision now you have to live with it, I do still hope its the right decision for you, but yes, only time will tell on that one.
you tried to defend your decision by saying you never told me because you knew how much it would hurt me, well thats one thing you managed to get right. But if you knew this why wait all the time you did and why only finally admit it once the game was up?
To the other player in this game, you suggest to me that the manly and Domely thing to do is release this sub, you say that people who blog openly about a finished relationship on this board only make themselves look foolish, or is it more to ease your own mind and justify your own actions? you go on to tell me you made every effort to establish that this sub is not attached or owned by any one, before taking her under your wing, strange you never thought to ask her last/current Dom, isn't it?
you go on to insist that, she continues her relationship with me and encourage her to pursuit it. When you had checked that there was no one else, Why ?
Then have the nerve to tell me about protocol, why if you think that didn't you yourself follow it ?
Or is it that you don't give a monkey's about protocol?
What ever your view on protocol or mine or anyone else's, don't try to hide your own actions behind it.
I did as you know do that which you asked and publicly released her, why?
That was done for me, not either of you, I'm not to sure why you asked that I do that, aside from making you feel better.
Yes I do know that the relationship is over, as I said this is being posted for me to help me move on, but I doubt I'll ever understand anything thats happened.
But I will move on and find some one far more deserving of what I have to offer......
| 16 Apr 11, 5:13 PM andrewsean UK(CO), 5 yrs  |
Remember my friend, the best revenge is a good life. The world is your oyster and as a dominant that is single, solvent and makes his own toys I am certain there will be no shortage of applicants. Live long and prosper Mr Spock lol You skinny people mock us for being a little overweight and we laugh because we are harder to kidnap | |
| 16 Apr 11, 5:19 PM dragons_sub UK(B), 4 yrs |
What ^^^^ he said xx My religion is very simple. My religion is kindness.-- Dalai Lama | |
| 16 Apr 11, 6:50 PM ladybabe2 UK(SK), 6 yrs |
a year down the line after my heartbreak and l was broken in ways l never thought possible but with the help of friends am here loud and proud, looking better then l have for years, walking tall and found myself some exceptional new friends and love the older friends even more for there un-ending support. Take heart life will always move forward... hugs xxxx Don't make them a priority, when they only make you an option... | |
| 16 Apr 11, 7:33 PM Headless_Biker UK(NG), 9 yrs |
I agree also, I could reply to the comments made by all parties - "the Domly thing to do" etc, and could rip arguments and comments and if given half a chance, a lot more besides apart into tiny little pieces... However, I think the best thing to do is to move on and say fuck em. At the end of the day decisions have been made, that could go either way... Personally I would like to say i hope all are happy, but Kharma doesnt necessarily work that way as what comes around, goes around. Users can be used, Toys can be replaced and even Players can be played. At the end of the Day, I agree with the previous comments, Sod em Pete, Sod em all... You have real friends, who care for you, and even though we may not be physically by your side, we are stood next to you. Keep strong, and show her what she could have won... Headless_Biker - Gary. | |
| 16 Apr 11, 8:56 PM QuietD UK(WV), 7 yrs |
There's no place for revenge, however you word it. I'd simply like to understand it. Closure is my aim here.
Yes I do know you didn't mean it like that. think you've got me in enough trouble for one day, don't you
Life may knock us down, but its how we get up and move forward that's important. | |
| 16 Apr 11, 9:00 PM QuietD UK(WV), 7 yrs |
Yes, I do realise how lucky I am to have such good friends, one of whom wants to show her exactly what was missed when the time comes. You I believe know to whom I refer.
Life may knock us down, but its how we get up and move forward that's important. | |
| 16 Apr 11, 11:47 PM anncat UK(ST), 7 yrs |
sometimes you do have to write things down for them to make sense to yourself....I hope writing this helps you move on and close a particular chapter. Not that I think its ever that cut and dried of course. I wish you well in moving on. but it was not your fault but mine and it was your heart on the line I really fucked it up this time Edited 16 Apr 11, 11:48 PM by anncat |
