Emotional violence.  (22)

When he calls me a porker, grabs my tummy or something similar, it wouldn't work if he had been telling me how lovely i looked moments before or moments after - but i also couldn't stand this sort of thing forever, otherwise it'd completely destroy me.

My biggest turn on is jealousy though. It's a weird one, cos i know how he feels about me but when he talks about other people, or plays with them or kisses them, it twists my insides. It's like he's punching my emotions black and blue. But, much like physical sadism and masochism turns me on, the fact he hurts me emotionally makes me rather, erm, hot and bothered too.

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You tell me to eat lima beans, I'll eat lima beans
@Modified_Bodies
@O_and_P

I haven't yet been in a relationship where I think a really high level of emotional pain would strengthen, rather than weaken, the relationship. So it's something I haven't really played with. It's good to hear other people's thoughts and experiences though.

Yes, yes.

Too many fat jibes in a week makes me sad/horny/sad.

Too many in a month make me sad/delusional/unwilling to eat.

(Oh alright, and a bit horny. I just really like the fat thing...)

A "you're a fat porker down there on the floor aren't you?" jibe

or a "look how fat and disgusting you are, down there on the floor like a dirty sow"

Preference!?

Patrick
IndelibleMarker
Specialist Extreme Professional Dominant
@U35Munch - London U35 Munch Details

I think this is true-that the body can heal faster than the mind can; emotional scars can and often do last a lifetime for some whereas if you sit in the sun long enough, over time physical scars fade .

And I love humilation/degredation in a scene, as others have said, the pain the subs' going through has to be in the head -just as much as- their body.

Sadder still to watch it die than never to have have known it.

I am mainly an emotional masochist. It can be very destructive and even I fight against it when it actually happens causing immeasurable fall out. I am not easy to handle at that point as I am articulate and very presuasive and incredibly unattractive in my downward spiral of self destruction. So what does that mean?

I am a cuckquean more than anything. I love humiliation and someone getting in to my head and that works well. I am dark and twisted and like the harsher side of things. It isnt light. I am jealous but it twists in on me creating an incredibly turned on pathetic female.

So, when he meets someone else that works. When he plays with her and fucks her that works. But I need a little more than the doing. He takes pictures, videos, makes recordings and compares me publicly and very privately. He tells me she's better, tighter, slimmer and prettier while he's using me. Or no contact and I imagine it (often worse) He tells me to masturbate to the recordings or to watch them and he compares us then too. It turns my stomach and makes me feel sick but god I want it. I am so violently turned on at that point.

I also then react, I fight, I become insecure. At that stage I almost need cruelty, to be tied or held, be told how pathetic I am and for him to make it worse and punch it out of me. I love it when he then just uses me as something to cum in, reclaiming his property, but not nicely, the more violent emotionally and physically the better. Then just to be held at the end and knowing he loves me and I am safe. I become incredibly submissive afterwards too, anything to please him, keep him and to enable him to be with her too.

Yes the physical stuff is great and I prefer violence to play, but fuck my head, effectively, and my body will do anything.

Deb

"Woman in her greatest perfection was made to serve and obey man." John Knox

"Don't Dream It - Be It" - The Rocky Horror Show 1973

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Quick Lynn, run, they're sex people
@Modified_Bodies
@O_and_P

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"Woman in her greatest perfection was made to serve and obey man." John Knox