Posted by subette on Thu 6 Jan 11, 8:15 PM to subette's blog.
So, a year ago today, in a fit of hornyness, I signed up to IC. I guess I was hoping to find a pervy quick fix and I'll admit I was a little frustrated at the (then) 7-day wait til I could post. Though, in hindsight, it was probably a good thing as I would only have written some awful first post when I was in that state...
What a difference a year makes.
I didn't know back then that this site wouldn't just cater for my short-term pervy kicks. That it wasn't just another way of finding closet pervs to have cyber-sex with. It has opened my eyes, made me think, made me explore, made me test myself like I never have, find my limits, understand myself better. I feel more comfortable with myself then I ever have before.
It has also given me something invaluable: better friendships. New pervy friends who don't make me feel like a freak for even just thinking some of the stuff I do, who put up with my endless questions and are always there with an ear to bend or a shoulder to cry on.
It's made some of my existing friendships so much better too. I understand myself better now, which makes it easier to explain the way I feel. I don't shout about my kink from the roof tops but I no longer feel I have to hide it. (That was a horrible place to be).
Being able to be more open with my close friends about that side of me has been a revelation. Life still throws me curve-balls, but being able to finally talk frankly about things to people who care about me, without having to hide any part of who I am, has felt like a weight has lifted off my shoulders. Without the debates and the questions and the blogs on here I wouldn't have had the words to be able to even start to explain before.
So thank you all of you who have debated with / memoed / laughed with / cried with / advised / informed me over the last year. You really have made a difference.
Special mentions must, of course, go to the Glasvegas crew who have regularly shocked and entertained me over the last year, as well as providing much needed offline advice and support.
And also to @Admin - 'thank you' doesn't seem adequate somehow.
Subette
Edited Thu 6 Jan 11, 8:17 PM by subette
| 6 Jan 11, 11:10 PM Navare UK(B), 9 yrs   |
Quite simply beautiful, here's to your next year I've got over eight under my belt and it's nice to see and read someone enjoying this site and what it was made for. N..xx http://uk.groups.yahoo.com/group/Impulsion_group |
