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| Sun 21 Nov 10, 1:45 AM bhambbwsub UK(DY), 2 yrs  |
Im still pretty new to all this, but have enough experience to know this is what i want need crave and need! but lately ive had really bad craveings to be "broken" Question is .. What exactly is "being broken", i dont know what it is, yet i crave it sooo much, i want to cry, total loss of control, reach a limit and totally go past it. hmmm is it normal for me to crave somthing i dont undertand?? | ||
| 21 Nov 10, 2:10 AM Baby_Girl UK, 5 yrs £  |
Hello x It is not to understand, it is to be experienced, it sounds like a deep need you have,, from how you describe what you wish to feel seems to me that you do seem to understand how you feel,,, but heres my twopenneths worth anyway,,, Only when you are 'Broken' can you truly say you have submitted. To be broken is the ultimate in your submissive craving. Total use and pushing of limits way past what you can 'usually' cope with. Being so totally used mentally and physically drained is the only way to achieve this ,,, So that you are left with tears and exhaustion and full of warmth afterwards,, to make you adore your Mentor more each and every time you play,, So you are floating even before they have 'finished' with you,, allowing them to take even more still,, whilst you are in your height of extasy ,, the pain lifts you into a higher state of conciousness,, seperating you from the given situation,, usually a case of 'breaking down' afterwards,, wether with tears or nicely floating,,, A truly wonderful thing,,, Wishing you well with your journey x
'BOUDOIR 69' | ||
| 21 Nov 10, 2:13 AM Contessa_dei_Fiori UK(N), 2 yrs |
As a fantasy it is excellent; as reality, it is the pits. Be careful what you are wishing for because someone out there is bound to give it to you. | ||
| 21 Nov 10, 2:15 AM bhambbwsub UK(DY), 2 yrs |
wow thank you baby girl :D u just gave my butterflys in my stomach. i think i know what i want and need, and i think i understand it, but then .... i dnt really know or understand anything, but i am LOVEING finding out :D x | ||
| 21 Nov 10, 2:19 AM Baby_Girl UK, 5 yrs £ |
Just be careful with yourself, this can be a very beautiful thing but yes, there are some 'crazies' out there to keep yourself safe from. I have experienced this in 'reality' and to me it was the most amazing & wonderful experience of my entire life,, and it is repeated as & when I feel the need,as you say,, the 'craving' inside. A beautiful feeling comes from a beautiful mentor,,, who knows you inside out and someone who will take great pleasure loving you for your submission to them,, over time. Time is the key x 'BOUDOIR 69' Edited 21 Nov 10, 2:23 AM by Baby_Girl | ||
| 21 Nov 10, 2:21 AM bhambbwsub UK(DY), 2 yrs |
[/quote] As a fantasy it is excellent; as reality, it is the pits. Be careful what you are wishing for because someone out there is bound to give it to you. [/quote] i know i know, im to shy n nervous to rush into anything, took 5 mnths to meet the last guy, lol i think with my head noot with my pants, i dnt want it for a while, but if i understud it maybe it will make the cravings less, i crave many evil dark things, but as u say fantasys n reality are at compleatly differnt ends of the spectrum. what do you mean the pits though? im curious, most ppl describe it in a good way. | ||
| 21 Nov 10, 2:33 AM Baby_Girl UK, 5 yrs £ |
I apologise but how can a Domme say this? Have you experienced being 'Broken' yourself? Or do you just 'break' for a living? Yes we all understand the safety Implications,, but shes 22 years of age,, a baby for god sake! Its upto us to keep her safe with advice,, not to smash her dreams to pieces? Lets hope someone she meets is out there and will adore her for it. For her sake. 'BOUDOIR 69' | ||
| 21 Nov 10, 2:36 AM bhambbwsub UK(DY), 2 yrs |
 awww hehe, im neally 24 now, not such a baby, still suck the bloody thumb though. (IC does not seem to like changeing my age :S)i know it will be a "bad" experience as ur "broken" but i hope its bad in a fantastic way!!
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| 21 Nov 10, 2:37 AM Baby_Girl UK, 5 yrs £ |
Its out of this world girl! Just remember, its not about being 'battered & terribly abused' ,, its about allowing yourself to go past your highest limits to date,, until you reach a point where your limp with feeling & emotion,, the point where sobbing & crying is the release you need,, and once reached never forgotten,, 'BOUDOIR 69' Edited 21 Nov 10, 2:54 AM by Baby_Girl | ||
| 21 Nov 10, 3:04 AM Primal_Instinct UK, 20 mths |
perfectly natural, it's called a transition!! you need to be broken to be reborn. I hope you find your next phase in life soon and remember to be true to yourself always!!
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| 21 Nov 10, 3:53 AM bhambbwsub UK(DY), 2 yrs |
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