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| submissive29m |
on Wed 10 Nov 10, 12:19 PM to submissive29m's blog.
Feeling gradually depressed today, since ending my friendships with the various users who have really annoyed me in the past i am now feeling free of them and yet i regret having to end our friendships, all the money i have spent on them been so charitable and yet they take and take even more, all the times our friendships have ended and restarted, all the games we have played, always taken advantage of but to have friends with common interests hard to do, i realise i am better than them, have a better living, last time they came to my place all the brother p wanted to do was use my internet have my old laptop which is breaking down and play games with his bro s, not thinking to include me, they bought their xbox's down, then to add to the rude factor they asked to borrow games before leaving, feeling like a rental library i told them i am not a rental library, they left, that was the last time, and yet i miss them,
im crying inside as i have nobody to talk to, i dont know what im doing, cant decide where im going and what to do next. i guess social contact is something i really need, hope i will find people, any age, i just want good friends who wont take advantage of me, who will accept me for who i am, i may be generous to people but on my own terms
