a low moment (2)

Posted by Elven_Eyes on Tue 2 Nov 10, 10:30 PM to Elven_Eyes's blog.

This is an evening rapidly going downhill. I pray it is all hormonal and will pass in a day or two.

I wept in fron tof him. I said it was PMS and laughed it off.

I hate the thought I might have broken us forever.

I miss him. He sleeps next to me every night but I miss him all the same because he has withdrawn and now I get the same access as everyone else- laughs and chat but no true intimacy.

I miss him

I broke us

I hate myself

I want him or nothing at all

right now I want to confront him with it- tell me there's hope! tell me it isn't all over forever adn the door hasn't closed on us!

Because if it has, my life isn't really all that worth living

I've seen the brighter, better side, when I was with you

I don't want to lose the joy you have brought to my life

I can't go on without you

I am so wounded tonight

but I can't let on

Letting on is weakness. I have to be strong and work my way through it alone. This- my feelings- isn't his problem. It's mine.

I miss you husband.

Replies

2 Nov 10, 10:36 PM
xXx_scarlet_xXx
UK, 4 yrs

Very sad situation still loving someone but being two lonely hearts x

(º•.¸(¨*•.¸¸.•*¨)¸.•º) «.•°•. Scarlet .•°•.» (¸.•º(¸.•¨**¨•.¸)º•.¸)

2 Nov 10, 10:43 PM
MisterBear
UK(WA), 8 yrs

Elven_Eyes wrote:
Letting on is weakness. I have to be strong and work my way through it alone. This- my feelings- isn't his problem. It's mine.

Is it weakness, or is it the harder thing to do and so requires strength to do it?

Mister Bear: Been putting the cum in cucumber since 1986.