Posted by pixie15_CJ_s
on Sat 27 Nov 04, 10:34 PM to pixie15_CJ_s's blog.
yes Jerry i still want to sit at your feet and serve you forever i hope you give me time to be who i was pls remember how good it was then help me get that back you still own my body and soul sorry i didnt look after it properly
ok this is boring but i need to write things down its just 30 days to Jerrys return as my friends know Jerry has been away for 107 days so 30 should be easy but and its a big BUT no comments pls!!! everything is different no i am different 9 heart attacks will do that to a subbie i have very large fears i want to be the same sub Jerry left but im scared i wont be i so dont want to dissapoint Jerry but the what if monster is very much in my head what if im too ill im too thin { i have lost about 3 stone} He takes one look at me and i see that look the one that says im not His subbie anymore? is it love or just pity? i know its still love........ oww and i didnt tell him just how ill i was { didnt want to worry him} oh god i feel frightened i only have one certain I LOVE JERRY is that enough? Dom/sub is a huge part of our life well our life revolves round it!!! and untill i try i dont know if i can be that person again
Edited Sat 27 Nov 04, 10:49 PM by pixie15_CJ_s
