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on Sun 3 Oct 10, 4:46 PM to PhoenixAmber's blog.
I officially graduated on Friday, it was as amazing as I expected, all of the emotions that I had expected and more were there. It really was the most amazing experience and the end of an era after 6 years of study. Another life goal achieved.
Amazingly it managed not to be overshadowed by the chaos that my life tends to favour recently and I think that I have finally allowed myself to remember just how strong I actually am.
I have spent the last 6 weeks or so being emotionally battered from pillar to post, lost in a fog that obscured everything from my vision, especially my own strength.
I think I may in the past few weeks have had a sort of spiritual ephiphany, I don't remeber it though, it was silent. Having had weeks of feeling like a child with no way to navigate my way through unknown waters the pendulum has returned the other way and I realise that I can cope with anything, quietly, naturally and with absolute faith in myself.
I have bent, been pushed and faltered on this most recent path but I have never broken. Perhaps in weakness and insecurity we find strength. I know what I'm worth, not in an arrogant way, but in a way that is quiet and secure. Having had a lot of what I have shaken recently I find that I know much more about who I am and what I expect from myself and others.
My life is consistantly complicated, but I'm used to that. I hope that my newly remembered core strength and beliefs will lead me in the right direction because life will coninue to throw things at me, a part of being a grown up is believing in myself and my ability to adapt and mould to the situation.
| 4 Oct 10, 11:06 AM EricStanton UK(BD), 11 yrs |
In your profile you describe yourself as strong, determined, driven, ambitious and independent. I think you can add resilient to these  None of these attributes have ever been hard to see from where I see you. The older I get the more I recall... how little I knew when I knew it all. |
