Head Space (9)

Lima likes bodymodification so as a treat I offered to have my first taste of needle play at Dystopia (mouth stitched).

Forced bi has been brought up again (someone thats interested in you will be at Dystopia) good for fucking them I said lol.

Now a beating AFTER my sewing lesson has been put on the table.

My bottle is on the verge of crashing yet my outfits sorted, a group of 8 are travelling down. Im starting to get thoose sicky butterflies in my stomach that I adore and its more than a month away

so.... whats the longest build up/head space youve expereinced.

This will be my longest to date and I know ill be sick with fear and excitement.

God I love S&M

There is nor fear in love;but perfect love casteth out fear

I had a severe punishment coming and every time he was due to arrive I tried to get into the right head space, but it was put off time and again. I almost cracked over it. It was doing my head in and nothing felt right. I eventually asked if that was part of the punishment, but it was not. He was having trouble getting into the right space to do it and had even tried to arrange for someone else to do it.

"I used to think I was serving humanity...and I pleasured in the thought. Then I discovered that humanity does not want to be served; on the contrary it resents any attempt to serve it. So now I do what pleases ?" extract from Stranger In A Strange Land by R.A. Heinlein

The biggest build up I ever had was finding out from Master was that he planned to cane me for an incredibly bad thing that is just too long to get into now. Master admitted that he had never caned before and knew that I had never received. The week leading up to it I was 50/50 looking forward to it (just too curious for my own good) and also dreading it. The did is now done, it bloody hurt, would not care repeat it and will make sure I don't have to!

This I can relate to, my crucifixion and suspension crucifixion have been on off on off for ages, ive3 actualy lost the head space but know that its something that will now probably just happen out the blue.

I agree very frustrating but all parties have to get something from it I guess so good things come to those who wait

There is nor fear in love;but perfect love casteth out fear

Yup the anticipation is just sublime, fear, excitement the unknown. Thats the part I crave almost as much as the pain itself.

P.S as far as hardcore goes Im one conversation away from bottling it (apparently im not allowed to bottle it).

There is nor fear in love;but perfect love casteth out fear

Painpet wrote: It was about two or three weeks when I was to get my nipples nailed. When the night arrived I have never been so nervous, terrified, excited and just plain scared. I loved every single emotion I went through from the build up, to it actually happening

Did it hurt? if that were me i would have been beside myself in the build up. Nailing anything is pure fantasy at the moment go you

There is nor fear in love;but perfect love casteth out fear

http://www.informedconsent.co.uk/posts/279850/

It was an amazing experience, not sure I would want to do it again in all honesty but the feelings I went through were mind blowing

OllieVW wrote: Painpet wrote: It was about two or three weeks when I was to get my nipples nailed. When the night arrived I have never been so nervous, terrified, excited and just plain scared. I loved every single emotion I went through from the build up, to it actually happening Did it hurt? if that were me i would have been beside myself in the build up. Nailing anything is pure fantasy at the moment go you

I'm scared, and I hate being scared. I'll be so glad when it's done.

subbie xxx