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| kinkymermaid |
on Thu 2 Sep 10, 8:16 PM to kinkymermaid's blog.
I just can't do this any more. Have you ever felt that you started out as maybe number 5 in someones life, and now you've moved down to about number 300?
Well, that's how i've been feeling lately, and i just can't do it any more, it hurts too much.
It's a no win situation.... the more you see someone, the closer you get to them, then when you don't se them for months you really miss them. So, considering this is impossible anyway, probably best not to start seeing them a lot in the 1st place. But i am a human being, with feelings, and life dosen't work like that.
When i 1st got into this, i knew the downfalls, the negatives etc, but it was brilliant, and i wouldn't change the past, not one minute of it.
So please excuse me if i sound a little self centred here, i don't mean to be, and god knows the man in question has beenn through a lot lately.
But it's time for a little self preservation now, time to curl up and retreat into my shell, away from the world for a bit (: But i'll be back soon i hope.
| 28 Oct 10, 5:33 PM violet_haze UK(TN), 2 yrs |
If you are talking about friendship?, then this always changes. I now treat friends as entertainment.. I expect nothing from them. I never plan anything, I let them do it. I do not help them, unless very serious. what I do enjoy, is constantly meeting new people, and enjoying that 'rush' of newness, and fascination that occurs, even if it is just a fleeting thing. if I give anything (time, energy) to anyone, it is given with no expectation of return. and things do come back, and they surprise me. chin up sweetie. x |
