Posted by LittleMissEvil on Tue 3 Aug 10, 12:17 AM to LittleMissEvil's blog.
I have tried to sit and wright something comical and with a light hearted spin on what happened today. But every time I tried it seemed somewhat insensitive. I know I am talking about myself but to make fun of something that is considered so serious was just something I couldn't do. I can joke about it with certain people but I think this being more public then it doesn't seem right to do that. I know that this is my own blog and I can put what I like on it; but I guess some things deserve some reverence in public.
Technically my life has changed in so many ways today, this morning I was a slightly mad person who had mood swings and could be drastically different personality wise depending on what mood I was in. Yet this afternoon I went from being that to being in the eyes of the state disabled, to having a mental health condition that regardless what I do will never go away. To suffer from something that can be horrifically debilitating at times and at others put me in situations where I have no regard for personal safety. The fact that I have to live with it for the rest of my life is not daunting per say and I could be one of the lucky few who don't get worse, and it could be manageable and I could lead a normal life. However knowing certain statistics about it I know that it's a slim possibility that it will happen like that.
So tomorrow I have to go see my GP and have my medication raised, as I would prefer to try the current medication first before resorting to the gold standard of lithium. Ah well I suppose I should stop thinking about it all for now, and think about something nice and happy, oh yeah if you haven't worked it out yet its bipolar disorder.
| 3 Aug 10, 12:31 AM GazUK1963 UK(B), 6 yrs  |
Hugs to you. You are still the same person that you were this morning. I hope that between you and the doctors, this can be managed. Take care, Gary xxx. Everyone who lives dies, but not everyone who dies has truly lived. |
| 3 Aug 10, 1:39 AM varietyclub 22 mths  |
Comically and hope you smile !! Lithium ! just think you could be battery operated and be the funkiest 'robotic dancer' on the high street; be cool, you;ll get better x |
| 3 Aug 10, 2:36 AM jules9 UK(CH), 3 yrs    |
As Gary says, you haven't changed who you are. I know it's hard right now, but try to see the positives. Now you have a diagnosis, you can start understanding the reasons for the way you feel, the way you behave. You'll find loads of support groups. There'll be lots of different people, all of whom will be affected slightly differently, but most of whom will have advice on how to manage your "condition". I'm really hopeful that this will be the start of some very positive things in your life. XxX |
| 3 Aug 10, 2:58 AM PapaSmurf UK(CF), 22 mths |
Bollocks to it. You're the same person you always were, you've just picked up a label. _______________ |
| 3 Aug 10, 7:19 AM Peccavi 4 yrs |
If you're still a student the financial surge of Disability Living Allowance will come in handy, it's not means tested so even if you're now in chambers, you'll still get it. As to never changing despite what you do ....... that is so wrong. Bi Polar is extremely common and most people (like yourself) simply need the right meds. And not necessarily long term, despite what they may tell you. Stress will exacerbate the condition and personal adaptation can help. You've only just been diagnosed and you've had a whole load of stress the last couple of years while I've known you. This point in time is not a blue-print for how you will always be affected (if at all) by the illness. What you need is the right dose of the right stuff and a period of calm, then you can figure how best to live your life with what is a PHYSICAL problem as it's due to chemicals and not psychology. Read 'Touched By Fire' for inspiration and 'How To Love Bratty Subs' just for my own peace of mind! Really, there is so much to say about an individual and that diagnosis that this reply doesn't do your blog justice. If you want to talk more, do please memo. |
| 3 Aug 10, 11:38 AM Peccavi 4 yrs |
Phone convo with the O/P - lots of explanations given and reassurances - I was the one getting my problems sorted out. A much needed boost. Oh and I can report that the O/P sounds fine (I did remember to ask). |
