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| 30 Jul 10, 10:42 PM darkdollie UK(FY), 7 yrs £  |
I'm often scared, that's what really gets me - it's what I crave, to be taken beyond my comfort zones. I have been in situations where I've really thought it was too much, terrified, sick and begging, broken - but for me, that's what's made them work. Fear - yum
Edited 30 Jul 10, 10:44 PM by darkdollie | ||
| 31 Jul 10, 1:07 AM misfit UK, 3 yrs  |
I used to think maybe I do not belong on this part of the forum as I find violence scary but I was once with a couple who took me out of my comfort zone and it was my own fault. I said I did not want to be beaten hard and they agreed but pretty soon I was being held down and choked, gagged and abused. Violence comes in many forms and I have to admit I was scared as no sooner was I allowed a breath of air and then I would find it cut off again. I have not played that hard for a while but would I do it again, probably. M Space travels in my blood. And there ain't nothing I can do about it. | ||
| 31 Jul 10, 7:13 AM Belasarius UK(M), 8 yrs      |
I really adore to deliberately, calmly, stimulate her terror, to take her somewhere she really doesn't want to go and to watch her mind work as she convinces herself that my joy and pleasure makes her fright a price worth paying. My goal - to save women from nature (Dior) | ||
| 31 Jul 10, 3:41 PM Xafar UK(S), 12 yrs £    |
and i feel that that is the whole point... if you do not fear the process then why bother doing it... fear of the knife or the knuckle or whatever and what they may do to you and the knowledge afterwards that you not only survived it but enjoyed it... really not much better... Mac
"is this a rhetorical question..." | ||
| 4 Aug 10, 9:08 AM Calimero_rslw UK(DE), 23 mths |
I was reading this and to be honest this is my biggest fear on this.. The fear that for all I ask for, that when I get it that I will suddenly actually find it far more terrifying than I imagine it. I have am on a promise/threat of a very brutal time some time, I wont know when, I wont know where, but even now the mental games are being played. Its part of it for us, but the thing that I struggle with is that I am a psychologist, but he is also good with getting into my head. He has had me crying just from words because he knows how to emotionally hurt me. Now while just a game, that combined with the assult on my senses I know he is planning will be above anything I have ever had before. I am still excited although a little fearful. But if I wasnt fearful, not sure there would be much point. I am and always have been my Masters Slave, from the day I was born I was his. I just didn't realise it till My Master claimed me. | ||
| 5 Aug 10, 11:15 AM hailstone UK(HD), 9 yrs |
[quote/ Have you ever come across a situation where you have met someone and know that potentially they have the ability to get inside your mind/inflict violence and really hurt you both emotionally and physically, playing on the edge of what is consensual./quote] Yes. And yes it terrifies me, but it's not them that scares me as much as me that scares me. i will not allow fear to be the thief of my dreams. We're all scared sometimes but why go through life with regrets. | ||
| 5 Aug 10, 2:46 PM CherryPip 2 yrs £ |
It does scare me how far I am willing to take things... I always want something more shocking, more violent. It scares me the things I want to do, and WOULD do. When you're already playing quite, umm rough, how far can you really take it without putting yourself at risk of serious injuries... | ||
| 8 Aug 10, 7:14 PM successfu1 5 yrs |
When I first got into kink I had a fearlessness about it all- it was a daily challenge for my Dom to think up the most extreme thing he could and get nothing but a smirk, giggle or 'sure' from me. I had an unwavering conviction that I wouldn't get actually hurt or that whatever occured it would be a fear I'd handle out of submission for him. Then I had a few edgy experiences and felt truely scared, but came back wanting more. Then I had this violent ( I HESITATE to call it that in *this* context but looking back most of it would fit that bracket - 45 mintues solid work with a steel bar meant I ACTUALLY couldnt sit I was so bruised) world of safety shattered by a newb who broke my pain threshold because I stopped seeing the POINT in it. It wasnt for a purpose, it wasnt for his pleasure (never worked out WHY he did it) and so the purpose was simply not apparent. I had a bad set of emo, and snapped the 'spring' as mentioned in a comment higher up. This left me with a genuine fear of pain I truely didnt have before. And a strong self-hatred for my now wussy status. Tricky to rebuild. Now I experience a different sort of fear from violence,..but I wish it was the old one. |
