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Posted by WintersInnocence on Thu 29 Jul 10, 9:53 PM to the Ultraviolence group.
A potentially hypothetical question:-
Have you ever come across a situation where you have met someone and know that potentially they have the ability to get inside your mind/inflict violence and really hurt you both emotionally and physically, playing on the edge of what is consensual.
Then realise that you are terrified of seeing that darker side in him/her? Not necessarily scared of the physical acts themselves but scared of not being able to take what they want to give mentally and emotionally? That what they are able to give/inflict is more than you are able to cope with/handle?
Are there other people in this group like me who desire being on the receiving end of 'ultra violence' yet when faced with it are terrified of what that might mean?
x~W~x
Edited because i'm not making any sense.
Edited Thu 5 Aug 10, 8:59 AM by WintersInnocence
| 29 Jul 10, 10:09 PM Sirebel UK, 5 yrs      |
No man is good enough to govern another man without that other's consent. Abraham Lincoln | ||
| 29 Jul 10, 10:45 PM DeviantDr UK(E), 4 yrs   |
well unfortunately cant answer it (will wait until later to flip the question a little) but will be watching intently to see what is said... Will add though, the journey with a sub from fantasy to reality can be a very rocky one, can rip open nerves just as it can tear into flesh, and the complexity developed between the love of the feeling of fear from the loving of the fear from violence and the various cascades of emotion can be more and more confusing the further you push on into it "Howard was improvising like a motherbitch" Vince Noir Edited 29 Jul 10, 10:50 PM by DeviantDr | ||
| 29 Jul 10, 11:11 PM poutanaki UK(M), 10 yrs |
I think I'm scared of failure, of not being able to take it. Of letting down my top, because I can't be the release they need. I'm scared of over promising, of agreeing to something and finding that I can't deliver on my promises. I am scared that my fantasies out weight reality, and that physically I won't be able to take the things that I obsess about. I'm scared that one day it will be so horrific and that I will really truly hate it, that it will be so beyond what I can take and that for the first time I will be able to draw nothing positive from it, either during or after the fact, and that potentially may alter my relationship with pain and suffering and break the spell that masochism has over me. Your so pretty when your on your knees. Disinfected, eager to please. | ||
| 29 Jul 10, 11:25 PM Goldilocks UK(SE), 5 yrs |
Yes. I desire "ultraviolence" but also have a fear of it. | ||
| 29 Jul 10, 11:34 PM poutanaki UK(M), 10 yrs |
Ive never crossed that line yet, though the odd thing is, that even though I fear it, even though I worry it could change everything and haunt me... there is part of me that wants to cross it, just to see what it feels like I think!?... and that also scares me, the thought of how far I may be willing to go. Your so pretty when your on your knees. Disinfected, eager to please. Edited 29 Jul 10, 11:37 PM by poutanaki | ||
| 29 Jul 10, 11:38 PM DeviantDr UK(E), 4 yrs |
Fear of the act? fear of liking it as far as you do? or fear of what result in? Or is it not as clear cut as that? "Howard was improvising like a motherbitch" Vince Noir | ||
| 29 Jul 10, 11:44 PM DeviantDr UK(E), 4 yrs |
I often wonder about this aspect of it, I wonder if its like a spring.... you pull it, it springs back, pull it a little more, it springs back, but you pull it just that touch to far.. and you loose some of that spring, its no longer quite what it was.. I wonder if its like that, or maybe we just hope/think its like that? (as opposed to it not just failing to spring back, but actually unravels) Lets hope we all stay springy (edit: I say, lets hope we ALL stay springy, because I know from the other side of it all, there is a number of 'mirror' worry there as well)
"Howard was improvising like a motherbitch" Vince Noir Edited 29 Jul 10, 11:46 PM by DeviantDr | ||
| 30 Jul 10, 12:42 AM Lord_Gobbimort 6 yrs |
It is prob a crap place to be if edge play didnt scare you a little. If im playing with my Dominant aspect I believe that every so often out of the blue you need to have a crazy Ivan moment so the Sub knows you can go there. That uncertanty will add extra colour to all softer forms of play. commitment is like ham and eggs. the chicken makes a contribution, the pig makes a commitment. | ||
| 30 Jul 10, 11:19 AM WintersInnocence 2 yrs |
Posted with permission.
'One more, one more. Be thus when thou art dead, and I will kill thee And love thee after. One more, and that's the last. So sweet was ne'er so fatal. I must weep, But they are cruel tears. This sorrow's heavenly, It strikes where it doth love.' Othello Act 5, scene 2 | ||
| 30 Jul 10, 11:44 AM Heaven_Sent UK(NW), 4 yrs |
That's really sad Thanks for posting x |
