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Today I watched my friend walk away, somewhere I could not follow.
Today I cried for her, for the beautiful, vibrant, sensual, warm and wise woman who I turned to not just for help, and comfort - but for fun; joy de vivre.
Today I saw the friend I remember, covered in the shroud of severe mental illness. I barely see her through the sickness.
Today was my last stand, in trying to save her. I did everything I could. I failed.
Today I tried to accept that I cannot walk beside her in the valley of tears.
Tommorow I will let her go. Today I grieve for her.
| 16 Jul 10, 9:31 PM andrewsean UK(CO), 5 yrs  |
Our thoughts are with you good lady. Andy and Lyn xxxx when having a battle of wits, make sure your opponent isn't only half armed. | |
| 16 Jul 10, 9:43 PM Just_jessica UK(BN), 3 yrs |
I know you, and I know you gave 110%. I know you and I know that you are the deepest of carers. I know you and I know you will achieve all that you need to. You know me and you know that you can call on me, xxx. When i wrote it my tongue was probably in my cheek... Sorry this is a practice run for giggles, not the real thing, isn't it? | |
| 16 Jul 10, 10:25 PM little_imp UK(BN), 2 yrs  |
thankyou. Bloody hell, i've come over all emo. :-/
Don't worry, i'm sure it's only temporary- i must been listening to linkin park or something..! Xxx "WHORE!!" | |
| 16 Jul 10, 10:34 PM SpartanReserve UK(SN), 20 mths |
A tough decision without a shadow of doubt, and your post displays the weight of taking such a decision as its effect on you. Had to do this with my oldest brother 8 years ago, only so many straws can a Camel carry, I live in hope that one day we make come to terms and see the warmth of days past but know in my heart of hearts that it will never happen or atleast its lottery style odds. Take comfort in that you tried your hardest but no matter how hard you try it is always down to the other mind to take one step for your every two. You made your steps, you did what you could. Try to remember them as they were, cast out the shadow they became, Jesus some dom I am, nearly bloody crying lol, nothing worse than a fat man weeping, miss my big bro, Time will not heal complete, but 95 percent of the time now im fine, give it time and you may do even better as I am rather soppy. Hope you achieve sleep bliss at some time tonight and wake fresh. My love to you at this time, Steve. Its nice to be important but important to be nice, | |
| 16 Jul 10, 10:43 PM The_TOGmeister UK(BA), 3 yrs  |
She WILL return. It may take time but she WILL. When that day comes embrace and share old pleasures and look to future happiness. B X
Second childhood? Me? I haven't left the first one yet! | |
| 17 Jul 10, 9:22 AM little_imp UK(BN), 2 yrs |
I thank you for your kindness. I feel better today, still a little sad, but better. I hope she might return one day to being the person I remember.
@ SpartanReserve: good thing I've got a massive soft spot for a soppy dom! Thankyou for sharing your thoughts with me - it makes me want to hug you. Just FYI? So does your profile. Big softy
"WHORE!!" | |
| 17 Jul 10, 10:00 AM steved14 UK(TW), 5 yrs |
If you need to talk to someone outside of this i be happy to listen and what ever is said will go no where ok | |
| 17 Jul 10, 11:23 PM SpartanReserve UK(SN), 20 mths |
Need a blather trap shaped cork at times lol Im hard as coffin nails right grrr!
glad you feel a bit better. Steve
Its nice to be important but important to be nice, Edited 17 Jul 10, 11:27 PM by SpartanReserve |
