Posted by kaoskitten on Sat 12 Jun 10, 1:09 PM to kaoskitten's blog.
have days when instead of wanting to 'slap em' ya just want to hold onto the subs/slaves strength and never let go?
Having had the news that I knew was coming yesterday I have booked to go to Devon at the start of July. W/we were going on holiday in any case to South Wales for the week but have now decided to split it, Rack on Saturday, on to South Wales and now onto Devon mid week then back to Manchester at the weekend.
I should be excited but all I feel is an overwhelming sense of 'blackness'
'happy holiday' thoughts are tinged with the sadness and knowledge that this will probably be the last time I get to see my father. Everyone is staying positive and I am trying but the 'realist' in me knows that all the positivity is a facade. No one is saying it, everyone is thinking it.
and so instead of My normal desire to torture and maim kitten I just want to curl up into him and feed of his strength, his love and his care.
I have said before that I think I am lucky having him but perhaps have not said the word 'grateful' and I am.
I love him. I love them both.
bop it
| 12 Jun 10, 5:32 PM The_TOGmeister UK(BA), 4 yrs    |
Of course,and when he's had bad days he wants the same. Sharing in each other to the exclusion of everthing and everyone else is what makes the world go round. Don't look at me for the answer, I'm too busy thinking up the questions |
| 13 Jun 10, 9:44 AM misstressclare UK(TA), 4 yrs £ |
OH yes A sub should be there when you need them as much as when they need you, I am so very lucky to, it is the deepest of D.S x Edited 13 Jun 10, 9:45 AM by misstressclare |
| 13 Jun 10, 10:26 AM kaoskitten 7 yrs |
thanks to you both for replying. Seeing what I thought written by others reinforces that its not unusual  bop it Bind me, gag me, beat me and make me yours - kk (I have - bop_it |
