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on Sat 12 Jun 10, 11:54 AM to rachel1's blog.
my little mind is confused beyond believe this morning.
i woke up full of the joys of spring having spent the night dreaming of all the things a friend chatted to me about last night, advice on how to look good dressed up as a girl, and some other BDSM related things.
i come onto this site and start reading the weblogs and topics. This is where confusion set in.
i will not dwell on that save to say i have my personal thoughts.
i started to do the washing and hanging it out as it is a nice bright and breezy day only to greeted with "what do you think you are doing. Saturday is your television day" from the wife. i was only trying to help in these uncertain summer days of late.
when i come back to my laptop i get what you doing now. thought you were going to watch tele.
i know i am one who likes to be controlled and want to be owned by a proper Mistress as a form of respect and also for a change to my lifestyle where i primarily do the ordering and organising.
i am sat here now thinking what do i do. Do i follow my dreams or sit here and live in the present boring world of get up, organise, work (giving orders), and back to bed.
the little thing inside me has been growing massively over the last few weeks and i thought things were looking up.
NOW TODAY COMES ALONG.
i think i will go sit in the garden, forget the ironing o the shirts, forget the rest of the washing and hope that something happens to end all the confusion in me.
maybe i should go back to sleep and see if my dreams of last night come back and cheer me up. i somehow doubt it. What was a wonderful start to the day has turned really sour.
Not even going to watch the television. though born in England and now in Scotland i was hoping to watch that later to see if they get off to a good start. cant be bothered now.
hope everyone has a nice day and enjoys what looks as if it will be pleasently warm weather wise if here is anything to go by.
