Posted by fawn4n on Tue 20 Jul 04, 3:28 PM to fawn4n's blog.
I have been suffering from the most appalling agoraphobia for the last few months. It has resurfaced after a very bad bout almost six years ago, I won the battle and subsequently traveled to many places even long haul destinations.
This time around it hasnt been with me long and is still in that nasty stage of fear of just being outside my house but I am valiantly giving it my all and travelling to spend time with my beloved salincho and even away for a weekend.
But.......this is the problem.
I have a holiday booked with my kids and hubby to spain for a fortnight flying out on thurs morning early hours. I am absolutely torn, I hate the thought of not being there for my children but oh my god what about me?? I have had a terrible time with this being the worst year for many many years and am only just coming out of the tunnel. Do I jepordise my recovery?? It could be a wonderful success but alternatively it could be two weeks of constant panic in a strange place without all my safe people and things around me.
Dear people what should I do???
in total turmoil
fawn{N}
Edited Tue 20 Jul 04, 3:34 PM by fawn4n
